After all the quizzes...

Mode: lazy
Currently listening to: Forever and Always - Taylor Swift

The time when the last long test of the day was over (TLE), I felt like a big pile of things on my shoulders fell down the fire burning on the floor all throughout the day!

We didn't have a quiz in Chemistry. It was cancelled. The TLE long test was hard besause i didn't study that well yesterday.

Anyway, I'm just happy that this day is over. Tomorrow will be the continuation of our play in Filipino. But I'm still the narrator. So. I'm just chillaxing now. Playing music in the computer, posting here in my blog, maybe watching tv later.

That's all!

Answers!!!

Mode: studying
Currently listening to: Fearless - Taylor Swift

It's time to answer the questions given yesterday.

My group mates didn't get mad at me. Our head directer was a little disappointed because all of us where almost complete yesterday during practice. Only three didn't attend and I'm one of them.

I didn't have to explain the article. Thank God, our group is done with everything including the prayer service. The teacher probably let me off the hook or she probably forgot about it. So I didn't have to cry. Instead, during the half of the period, during the activity of the next group, I ended laughing really hard mainly because I felt awkward sitting beside a classmate that I have never been seated with and that I am not close with. That's part of the activity so it was unavoidable.

The play didn't go well. We skipped many of scenes because the group directors wanted the play to be finished before the bell rings or else it will be cut and left unfinished. I thought that if the play is cut, it couldn't continue anymore. I was wrong; the teacher gave us ten minutes extension next meeting. In the ten-minute extension, we should be able to finish the play. Our group planned to do scenes that we practiced and the last two chapter scenes which are romantic. My friend was close to crying but instead, for the very first time, she said bad words.

I wasn't able to narrate properly. They gave me an extra job. They told me to continue their lines if ever they forget theirs. It was obvious that their lines were forgotten since I was saying their lines. We stopped continuing their lines because it was a disaster. And no, I didn't jumbled the words I was suppose to say.

Oh yeah! I didn't receive yet my certificates today. I don't know when but I'll get them surely before the last day or even before the exams starts.

Anyway, I killed many of time already. Still have to study for the following:

Quizzes:

• Geometry
• English
• Chemistry

Long Tests:

• Social Studies
• Technology and Livelihood Education (T.L.E.)

Speaking of Social Studies, my teacher in that subject calls me to recite even though I was not raising my hand to answer or share about what the topic related to our lessons. It's really weird!

I have to go now! I have to study if I want good grades, you know...

See ya then!

Questions...???

Mode: Sleepy
Currently listening to: Get Back - Demi Lovato

I suck 'cause I had all the time I had awhile because students in all grade and year level don't have classes today. I didn't do much!!! That's why I suck. All I did was to do my Advanced Algebra Homework. Then when I was fixing my things just now, I remembered that I still have to explain the contextualization part of our report in Religion about an article in the Magazine called World Mission, December 2008 issue, and it's all aboutus, human beings doing harmful things to the world. That's the main idea and I have to elaborate on it and connect it to the stinking fifth beatitude. What more can I say about the topic??? I'm not a freaking expert in speaking in front of people and talk about something I don't even care.

Another is that we had a group general rehersal today but I didn't come to practice because I was too lazy to come. My groupmates texted me and called me on the cellphone but fortunately for me, the awesome cellphone was wit my mmom who was in her office. I told her that we hade practice today and told her to tell my classmates that I'm not coming anymore because I was not allowed by her. My groupmates would understand especially since my mom was the one who they called and texted and had a conversation with. I wonder what happened during the practice.

Will they get mad at me tomorrow??? Will I be able to explain the article the way I'm expected to??? Will I be crying in the end because the teacher is disappointed that I didn't do well with the explanation? But the biggest question of all is: Will our play be successful and be pleasing to the audience or is it going to be a disaster and my friend would cry and sob and the play will be cancelled because it is obvious that the group is not prepared? Last thing, will I be able to narrate properly all the things I have to narrate or will I be jumbling the words that I will be reading tomorrow?

Oh yeah, I haven't taken home all three of my certificates. I'm still waiting for the teacher to give them to me so my parents would believe me that I did join the stinking quiz bee. Will get the certificates tomorrow???

So many questions, so little chance for me to get advantage in all these situations.

See you tomorrow for answers... I'm sleepy!

See ya then! :)

Done Watching...

Mood: ...
Currently listening to: nothing

I just finished watching Bata, Bata, Paano ka Ginawa. Anyway, I'm gonna do my homework now.

See ya then!

My Life Sucks A Lot and Rocks A Little

Mood: sad
Currently watching to: Bata, Bata Paano Ka Ginawa

my life sucks in so many ways...

• We have a practice for the Play in Filipino today... And everyone has to attend. I think I'm the only one is not there. I feel like a useless member of the group. The reason why I can't attend is because my mother didn't allow me. Her reason s because my dad texted her and told her that his office is in a brown out situation and the rain is pouring heavily. But here at home, I the rain is is just light and there is no brown out. I had to call my classmate to tell her that I can't come with her on the way to the court where the group is suppose to practice. I feel bad about myself because last night I already told her that my parents agree for me to go to the practice. Now, I feel that tomorrow they will get mad at me. I can see right now the face of my friend who is the leader of the group. She is probably crying or really pist off or really mad at me. I don't think I can show myself to her or to my groupmates tomorrow. I'm scared to death now.
• We have a homework in Filipino about making a summary of all the Chapters of the novel we read, about making Character Analysis on the characters of course, and about their very important dialogues. We are suppose to just write them in our notebooks but unfortunately for me, I forgot my notebook in my locker. I almost forgot, too, about this homework. It's a good thing that my classmate group mailed about if she can print hers instead. That reminded me of the homework. What sucks is that I shouldv'e done the homework two days ago.
• Our Advanced Algebra teacher always gives us advance homework. if we do the a.h., we can get extra points. I always get that kind of homework done the day she gives it. now, I haven't done the most recent one and I haven't finished the last one yet.
• I could've done the advance homework if it weren't for my math notebook, running out of pages. We went to the NBS yesterday and I totally forgot about the stinking notebook. Now, even though I like to start answering the homework, I can't. I still have nowhere to write the answers.

Though it sucks a lot, it rocks a little bit...

• My mom found a way so I can watch "Magnifico" and "Bata, Bata Paano Ka Ginawa?". These are movies that we have to watch individually or in group. These are part of the lessons for us to learn in the Filipino subject. We rented a VCD of Magnifico and a DVD of Bata, Bata yesterday. I finished watching MAgnifico last night. Now, I'm somewhre in the middle of the movie Bata, Bata.
• It's a good thing I didn't come to the practice, too. Now, I have time to finish the movie and do the homework.

That's all! I wish tomorrow will never come...

Today at School for Three Hours after Dismissal (and other things too!)

Mood: Tired
Currently listening to: Breathe - Taylor Swift

Today is our school's Personnel's Day! This is the day when we give gifts and thoughtful cards/letters to our teachers and apologize the things that made them sad and mad at our class. This is also the time when we get to know our teachers better. This is the day when the teachers celebrate and have a little rest from work by going home early!

We usually go home at 3:10pm from school during Fridays. Today, we go home at 2:25pm! Unfortunately for almost all the Juniors (including me), they have to stay until 5:00pm-5:30pm to practice for our current play: Maganda Pa Ang Daigdig. It is really pain because instead of resting at home in an early time or do whatever some of us want to do, we have stay in school and do some effort to at least perfect our group presentation.

So our group went home at 5:30pm. For some, the time alloted for practice (2:25pm-5:30pm) wasn't enough. For me, it was more than enough to practice at least 5 scenes given that the time was long. I didn't do much during the pracrice because I was just the narrator and kinda director (not really). So I just waited for my turn to speak. My lines are really short and since I am the narrator, I didn't need to memorize my lines.

So what exactly did I do at school for the whole 3 hours and 5 minutes? From 2:25pm-3:30pm, three of my group members and I went to National Bookstore to buy materials to make our backdrop/background. On the road, we stopped by McDonald's. The three of us bought sandae cone and the other one bought regular fries and coke float. We took a lot of time in the bookstore because we spent time in looking for the notebook. I didn't come along for the materials needed, I came along because I was suppose to buy a Math Notebook since I only have 3 pages left in my other one. We didn't find one so we left with the materials needed only. Then we went back to school.

When we got to where our other groupmates were, we sat on the grass and waited for someone to boss us around and say what we have to do. One group member told us to paint the drawing that was written in pencil. So we did. The only problem was we weren't able to do it the way she wanted it to look like. So she was freaking out because it was ugly for her. So we did something else like practice our lines. Since I didn't need to memorize my lines, I just practiced the way I should deliver them. But that was a little easy so I finished a little earlier. So what I did was to join the other two directors of the group and direct a little. Then I read my lines when it was may turn. Then I watched them act. After that, some of my other classmates who brought their camera took pictures with me. For the rest of the time, that was what I was doing. When it was 5:00pm, I left the group and went home. And that's how practice went. Some painted the whole time, some were acting and eating.

A little update on my school life, she cried again and said that she was stressed in general. I asked her for details but she won't tell. She also told me that she is sad. Then I replied and said that I am feel sadder than her ever since... then I didn't continue and decided not to tell her. Then during dismissal when we wen to NBS, she asked me again why was I sad and ever since when. I didn't tell her still. To be honest, I was really sadder than her but I was not sure when it began so I just said that it's a secret why and when i was sadder than her. In short I kinda played her mind into figuring out why and when. Now, too, when our class go to one venue to the other, I go there by inserting myself somewhere in the middle of the line with other classmates. It was awkward to walk, I have to admit, when you are walking somewhere where you do not know anyone or are not close to anyone. So I tried to talk to the person in front and at the back of me when I insert myself. It was changelling but it is an opportunity to talk to every person in the class. =)

I'm feeling a little better since I already told her the fact that she doesn't tell me the reasons why she cries, or why is she sad. I also told her what I experience when she is with her ka-chika buddies. Now, I am paranoid to her when she cries. When she cries, I try my best to ignore her and to actually not comfort her since I don't connect to her anymore. Maybe I connect to her a little but I guess the line between us is breaking up. I'm afraid that next school year I might not be as close to her as I used to before. I have this gut feeling that so much will happen to her with her ka-chicka buddies that they won't tell me and they'll laugh about something I don't know. Or maybe they'll tell among themselves about their summer experience and I won't be able to connect.

Recently, when I hanged out with another new friend who is a Social Studies Nerd, we have been talking about graduation and leaving the school for good. She too has some issues like mine. In fact, her best friend is one of my friend's ka-chicka buddy. So we face the school world, this school year, a little similarly. It's good to have her as a friend in the class. I opened up to her last week wednesday during our T.L.E. when my friend started crying and the only persons whe tells her story to is her ka-chicka buddy/ies. I felt really bad and ignored at that time that's why I decided to release what I felt. The feeling was torturing me every time I experienced it. It's a good thing that I told it to the right person or else, if she wasn't the right one, she could've told my friend already. If my friend knew about it, then it would just be fine because I know that we're friends and if gets mad, I wouldn't care more.

That's all. This has been another heart-to-heart session about me. I have to go to sleep now! Tomorrow will be a special day for my mom since tomorrow is Valentine's Day and at the same time, her birthday, too! She told me not to buy her a flower anymore so I bought secretly. I am currently keeping the white rose I bought her, before I went home inside my bag, placed in a plastic with water so it won't wither. Tomorow is also the Parent Consultation on Career Decision-Making. Everyone is expected to be there at 7:30am. We are planning to go there at 8am. I'll be going with my mother since my dad has to go with my brother in his school's Family Day.

That's all! I really have to sleep now! Goodnight! =)

It's The Time of My LIFE!!! - Continuation

Mood: guilty
Currently listening to: The Best Day - Taylor Swift

I almost forgot... last week, Friday, we got the certificates from the quiz bee. Our team were second place in the hands-on part of the quiz bee!!! Our team also grabbed third place in the overall thing. When our names were said in front of the whole High School Department, I attempted to jump up and down again just like last time. But what made me stop was the principal and directress presence who were the once who gave the certificates.

One thing that gave me my attention that time while holding the cheap certificates of our school was my name written in the wrong spelling!!! It spelled - Darryl - which was WRONG!!! so when the better math teacher in the school proctored us (he was the other geometry/trigonometry/algebra/facilitator of the mathletes), I complained (just a little bit). He said he'll take it back and change the spelling of my name. What a dude. He was awesome too! The class had fun with him during the geometry period. I wish he'll be the class' trigo teacher next school year...

I feel guilty because I haven't started anything yet!

Gotta go na!

They just need to come out...

Mood: Fresh feeling
Currently listening to: Love Story - Taylor Swift

We had our practical exam in P.E. a while ago. My team got the third place in overall in our class. And I wasn't the reason for that. I didn't contribute anything to the team. I stood there waiting for the ball to touch the ground or get hit by one of my team members. I served the ball and wished it fell in the court not out. I felt useless. But it was fine.

I feel fresh now because I took a bath to get rid of all the sweat. I didn't do much but the court was warm.

About the post before this, I still like and am friends with the friend I talked about. I just wanted to release my inner thoughts of what is happening to me during school hours.

I still have to study for our Chemistry Long Test tomorrow, and do a reflection for my seatmate. I am suppose to include in my to-do list the advanced homework in Advanced Algebra. I felt lazy in bringing home the thickest book so I don't have it now and I plan to do it tomorrow.

Tomorrow, I will go home at 5:30 pm because we have practice for the play in Filipino about the novel "Maganda Pa Ang Daigdig". I'm the narrator/director (although I don't act like a director).

I'm listening to Taylor Swift's album: Fearless. My Jonas Brothers/Miley Cyrus/Demi Lovato/Selena Gomez/Taylor Swift/Disney Channel buddy burnt a copy of the Album for me. She is so cool. I'll link her blog to mine when I have the time to link the blogs I wanted to link to.

Anyway, I'm all alone at home right now. My brother attended the procession of the Our Lady of Lourdes. I'm enjoying my Home-alone experience today so bye for now!

Lots of things to do so little time...

IT'S NOT FAIR!!!

Mood: I feel so pist off!!!
Currently listening to: This Is Me - Demi Lovato

A little thing that anyone should know about me is that I hate secrets especially when they are kept away from me. People with secrets are, in my opinion, insecure. If anyone would know about there secret, they fear that people might not treat them right. But one thing they don't know is that they are supported at all times by those people who care about them.

You see, the thing is, what really hurts is when your friend whom you know more than anyone in a group of new faces, has an experience or story that she is not telling you but is telling to othrs whom she has known for months only. You ask her, "what is it all about" and all she says is "you'll kick my ass if you knew" whatever that is. Because of this, instead both of you are bonded together as friends, you get more and more separated from her since you don't know what's happening in her life and about her. How the heck will you know her better if she doesn't update you when you ask for an update? The part which makes you wish you weren't her frind is when you figure that she is telling her update to another person other you, who asked first.

Everytime the two of you walk together to go to another venue where the class will be held, a classmate approaches and asks if she can borrow your friend for a moment and talk to her about secrets you shouldn't hear that's why they have to be away from you. This leaves you to yourself alone in the corridor going to where the class is suppose to go. If you see a person who you can walk with, other than your friend who is "borrowed away from you", you yourself will find a reason for walking with her so she doesn't feel being used by you since you have no one to walk with.

Another reason why you wish you weren't her friend is because during free period when the teacher is late, you find yourself sitting with her but not talking to her which is the main reason why you seated beside her in the first place. Then you feel like moving a seat away from her because you don't want to see her and the person, who she is talking to, whisper or mouthing what they have to say to each other since it is a secret. Everytime a person talks to her, you have to back off a little so you won't hear what they are talking about. You just look away when they laugh about something you don't even know about.

Then she tells one secret. She also tells you not to tell anyone. You know that she'll get mad when you tell anyone so you keep it a secret. Then you find yourself in a situation where she accidentally blurts it out and tells to the people who heard to not to tell anyone about it. Then one of the people who heard it spreads it out and she doesn't even get mad at that person. Then you think about that situation where you think that what if you were the one who told the secret. You'll think and guess that she won't talk to you for a day and that she won't tell you any more secrets.

And to think that she is suppose to do all of these things with you and that she should be considering you more since both of you had a foundation to your friendship and all that's left is to build it up more so it won't break down into pieces. You don't want your hardwork into building your friendship be put into waste just like that. She doesn't mean to do these things with others instead of you. But the process you are going through and the thoughts that go into your head are holes that can bring down such friendship.

She is friends of course with those she shares secrets with. They very fortunate to know a lot about my friend more than I know her. That's why, because of this realization in life, I have decided to tell my bestfriend about the website of this blog. My bestfriend can judge me in any way she wants. She is my best friend after all. She understands me that's why I have a lot of fun when I'm with her. There is never a boring moment with her. True, there are times when the two of us are out of things to say to each other but being with her makes me happy already. I hpe she feels and thinks the same way. If not, it's fine me too! We don't have secrets from each other. That's why I felt unfair to her because she tells and allows me to visit and read about whatever she writes in her blog and I don't want her to know whatever I post in my blog and won't even tell her mine when I changed the web address.

On Monday, I am ready to tell her my web address and let her read everything in this blog. I'll just tell her not to tell anyone. It will be our own little secret, just the two of us. This a simple kind of revenge that I can think of. It's a bad revenge but it's the one thing I got that my other friend doesn't know about.

What sucks and rocks is that next school year, we will surely make another term paper about a different novel. In our school, we do the term paper as a pair. My partner is my friend who seems to be the topic of this post. Next school year, she surely won't be my partner because she already made arrangements with another classmate. Now, I am forced to pair myself with a classmate who I have been sitting beside ever since my first year in High School. She is the only one I got who is serious yet fun to be with too. It sucks because my friend who the topic is the best in the class and that's something that everyone in the class has to admit. If don't work with her, then I guess my term paper next school year won't be as good as what the two of us are doing now. What rocks is that she doesn't have to boss me around next school year in doing the term paper since she won't be my partner anymore.

It's not fair because I should be knowing her better and getting close to her since I am her friend for three or four years.

Now you know how I am and what I go through during class hours. I only get to hang out with my bestfriend and leave my friend during recess and lunch time.

Writing all fo these things that are trapped and now set free in my head makes me feel a lot better. I feel the best if my best friend would read this post.

So chow for now!

I'll sign in to Yahoo! Messenger to give her an instant message containing the web address of this blog of mine. Some of these are things I already told her.

Bandfest!!!

Mood: happy
Currently listening to:We Rock - Camp Rock

Yesterday was a very rock n' roll night! WE had our bandfest at our school. I went to there with my friend and bestfriend and another friend. I totally had fun with them! There were bands from the school itself and mands outside the school. The best part was when Chicosci played their music! It was awesome! They did medley songs. They sang, other than their songs, That's What You Get, I Kissed A Girl, Hot N' Cold, and Single Ladies. Although I wasn't a fan, I enjoyed because everyone was jumping, screaming, and singing really loud!!! I screamed, too!

There was this not so famous band that also played last night. The band's name was Hansom (I'm not sure of the spelling). The band was compose of three brothers. The lead singer/guitar was a mixture of Nick and Joe Jonas! That's why I had a crush on him that night.

I only ate a barbeque and a jumbo hotdog (Purefoods, of course). The barbeque was made by the faculty of the school. A lot of people bought more barbeque than the siomai they also sold. I only had water. This was the only bandfest where I was able to enjoy and have fun but ate only few since I spent most of the time in the court where the bands and dancers performed (foods and drinks were not allowed in). Everyone did a great job, by the way especially the band that sang Burnin' Up by JB. After that and another song that they sang, my brother and I went home (he went with me then we splitted up). My brother was with his friends from his school. HE also had fun.

So went to the bandfest at 6pm and left at 10pm. That's a long time to have fun for a night!

I had a great night! I slept at 10:30pm and woke at 10:45am awhile ago.

That's all about last night. The next posts will be about thoughts that were supposed to be posted days, weeks, and months ago. This is the only time I have to post them.

It's The Time of My LIFE!!!

Mood: Awesome!!!!!
Currently listening to: Start the Party - Camp Rock

Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yaaaaahhhhhooooooooooooo!!!!!!! Yehhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeyyyy!!!!!

I feel so great!!! My team won the third prize in the Math and Science Quiz Bee awhile ago at 12:40pm to 3:10!

At first, my team and I thought that we didn't make it since there was no third year on our team during the difficult round. It turned out that we made enough points to catch up on the third place! I jumped up and down, left and right on stage as our names were called! I was overwhelmed because no one in the team expected anything! Now, we just have to wait for our scores from the hands-on competition which was held in the 28th of January. We will be awarded some time this week.

Yahoooo!!!!! I'm Out! Peace...

I'll add details when I have time. I'm studying for our long test in Religion tomorrow.

See ya then!