I Must Be PARANOID!

The Jonas Brothers' newest Music Video: Paranoid.

From their latest album: Lines, Vines, and Trying Times

Jonas Brothers - Paranoid Lyrics

I make the most of all the stress
I try to live without regrets
But I’m about to break a sweat
I’m freaking out
It’s like a poison in my brain
It’s like a fog that blurs the scene
It’s like a vine you can’t untangle
I’m freaking out

Every time I turn around
Some things don’t feel right
Just might be paranoid
I’m avoiding the lines cause they just might split
Can someone stop the noise?
I don’t know what it is but it just don’t fit
I’m paranoid
Yeah

I take the necessary steps
To get some air into my chest
Can't here the thoughts inside my head(song)/I'm taking all the doctor's meds(music video)
I’m still freaking out
That’s why my ex is still my ex
I never trust a word she says
I’m running all the background checks
And she’s freaking out

Every time I turn around
Something’s just not right
Just might be paranoid
I’m avoiding the lines cause they just might split
Can someone stop the noise?
I don’t know what it is but it just don’t fit
Consider me destroyed
Cause I don’t know how to act cause I lost my head
I must be paranoid
I never thought it would come to this
I’m paranoid

Stuck in a room of staring faces, Oh
Caught in a nightmare, can’t wake up
If you hear my cry running through her streets
I’m about to freak
Come and rescue me

Just might be paranoid, yea
I’m avoiding the lines cause they just might split
Can someone stop the noise?
I don’t know what it is but it just don’t fit
Consider me destroyed
I don’t know how to act cause I lost my head
I must be paranoid
I never thought it would come to this
I’m paranoid

Daryll's Declassified School Survival Guide

Mode: excited
Currently listening to: Don't Forget - Demi Lovato

SuRvIvAl GuIdE tO: HiGh ScHoOl - SeNiOr YeAr (StArTiNg AnD EnDiNg ThE ScHoOl YeAr RiGhT)
*ReSuLtS MaY VaRy

May 20, 2009 - What could POSSIBLY go wrong?!?
Applicable starting on the first day of classes until GRADUATION!
By DaRyLl JoYcE FlOrEs MaDdArA
~this is for me only but you can also follow some of these tips if you want to~

From NED's Guide (Guides seen during the opening theme...) - Do whatever it takes to stay awake. Dress for success. Don't freak about your body. Live your day dreams. Create great video projects. Ace Social Studies. Get organized. "IN GUIDE WE TRUST". (I’ll do all these things too!)

From ME:

save money - spend your daily allowance wisely, don't let delicious foods ruin your budget (they'll only put your money into your stomach--besides, you can eat delectable foods during the weekend because your mother cooks and makes all the snacks and viands), try bringing your homemade snacks and lunch to school so you won't have to buy food at all (but of course, your parents might not give you your allowance anymore), if you need something unexpected and you buy that "something" at school make sure that you charge the price to your parents because it was certainly not included in your budget (if you don't, your savings might decrease--i know, it's a little cruel for them but it's out of your hands anyway), it's not so hard to say "no" if someone asks some money from you (they should've brought money with them--but if all they need is a PhP1.00 then you can give it away), don't forget to hide your wallet were no one knows so you won't lose everything inside it ("everything inside it" - your savings/allowance), it's best to leave your savings at home so it won't get stolen at school

*if you follow these, you can have at most PhP1000.00 for a month--now that's ten thousand for the whole school year plus the money you'll gain from Christmas break--then you can buy whatever you want on summer or when you have time (remember... you're saving for your favorite artists' album or whatever it is that you're saving for!)

study hard - if you want to be an outstanding student... it's time to get serious, it's also the opportunity to be a NERD for the last time (that is, with matching eyeglasses and braces on your teeth--just so you know, it's not easy to have braces!!!) make sure that you listen to your everyday discussion (though sometimes the teacher is boring--not all the things that appear in the test can be found in the book), be patient, jut down notes and study them at home, don't let anything destruct you (not even the television or the computer--no matter how tempting they are), only use the computer when you have to research on your homework or project, you can also use the internet only for downloading the notes (from your lazy teacher) sent in your class' account (the teacher is lazy but that's better than writing down notes, right!?!), no chatting in the internet (not unless it's important), make sure that you don't sleep until you have mastered the lesson of the day or the week (even if it means giving yourself a headache... hahaha!!!--but that will help you in your quizzes...), in your spare time at home read the novels that you are required to read for the school year (no matter how boring the story is or how small the texts are), don't let your books lie around the floor, make sure to read them and challenge yourself by answering questions from the textbooks (they don't come in low prices, you know), if you have difficulties in a subject... don't hesitate to ask a classmate who is good at it (or better yet, ask the teacher-in-charge of the subject to clear things up about his/her lesson/s)

*accomplishing these can give you a lot of time to celebrate your high grades and rest—then you can do what you should've done when you were studying really hard--now that's an awesome payment for your hard work! Always remember that you can do better than what you already are

The teachers--their attitudes, their looks and the way they treat students are the things that a student can't help but notice during their first meeting with them---> for teachers who are:

~BORING - think of ways to make yourself awake because surely you'll yawn and slowly close your eyes and sit comfortably on your chair, doodle is the best thing to do (do it at the back of your notebook so you won't misplace it), try making a joke about the subject so things will get interesting and exciting (it will save your class from boredom--but don't overdo it), study about their lesson because boring teachers tend to call students who don't pay attention anymore (in that way, you have something to say about the lesson even though you weren't really listening), do a nice cover-up to your face if you decided to sleep (so they won't get disappointed and angry at you),

*they are boring for a reason... that's for sure

~STRICT - don't talk during their classes (that's one way to get out of trouble), keep quiet, avoid from making them mad, do the homework and projects they ask you to do (no matter how hard they are--this will get them out of the mad-mood zone), stand up if they ask you to speak, it's also best to study about their lessons so you can talk when they ask you to do so (you won't get humiliated in front of the class and they'll be shocked that you have said the right answer--making them feel happy and be less strict), don't talk to them when you see them on the corridor (they won't greet/talk back--you might get in trouble for not choosing the right words), to calm them down--help them bring their things to the faculty room or to their next class (they'll appreciate it a lot!), do everything that they say (don't do it, if it means doing something bad), it's impossible to approach a strict teacher but don't let that factor hinder you from asking questions (unless of course your questions are so stupid--they'll totally get mad and irritated), don't ever sleep in their classes (even though your eyes are shutting down), go to the washroom and wet your face (one way to prevent yourself from sleeping), don't you dare cheat in their quizzes and exams (besides, why would you cheat anyway?--you should've studied hard), don't even try eating during their discussions (even if you're starving to death--you should've eaten during the breaks), don't comb your hair in front of them (they'll confiscate your comb), be patient with them (wait till graduation), talk to them more often (this might cool them down)

*impress those strict teachers and make them speechless when it comes to you

~FRIENDLY - don't get too comfortable with them (this will lead to a serious case of being a teacher's pet), show off your skills in their class (you have got to let her know that you are amazingly awesome, dude--it's your time to shine without any fear!), don't take advantage (they might end up strict and you won't have fun in her class anymore), be friendly with them too (they are approachable-->not much of a problem), greet them whenever you see them, talk to them more often (applicable only when they get mad--they might get annoyed with you if it is too much)

*taking too much advantage will lead your friendly teachers to not liking you at all

~FULL OF PRIDE - beat the crap out of them (they are usually the ones who are a.k.a. know-it-all teachers), do an advance study about their lessons (they are usually impatient, too-- they think that the students are helpless), this is also the time to show off your skills, show them that you got what it takes to be in their classes, don't lose your temper to them (you'll end up losing to them)

*teachers like these are sometimes Math Teachers (no offense to our math teachers, though)

~CORNY - they are easy to handle. Just laugh at their jokes and there will be no problem.

~OLD - be patient with them (they're old!), give your respect to them at all times

~NEW/SUBSTITUTES ONLY - don't compare them to your real teacher (it will hurt their feelings), welcome them to your class, don't ignore them

*BONUS*- if the teacher is super handsome, don't fall into his trap! He’ll distract you from your focus on the lesson!

*in a nutshell, respect your teachers no matter what they look or what they really are. Be patient with them (because they surely are just being patient with you students, too). They are your mentors after all...

Lifestyle check - it's unavoidable to receive many text messages when you have a lot of text mates. put your phone away for awhile (you can always use it during the weekend), or as for those who doesn't have cell phones (like me) restrain from using the telephone especially if there are incoming quizzes or exams, it's better to leave your cell phones at home so you won't have to worry on hiding them from the teacher(you won't be able to concentrate when you're thinking about your cell phone), let your television rest while you do your homework and projects (you can always watch tv when you're done with your school responsibilities), don't waste time when you decided not to do anything productive on your spare time, rest if you have nothing else to do (at home not during class hours), sleep at night, don't let yourself suffer by not sleeping at all, do your assigned works immediately so you won't have to worry about it anymore (this will give you more time to rest, avoid cramming and procrastination), fix your things at home the night before going to school (this way, you won't leave anything that you need at home), list down important reminders for instructions on projects, assignments, and also announcements so you won't forget them (now, you don't have to ask your classmates about it when you get home--you're disturbing them!), hang out with friends only if school chores are done (you know what i mean), you can't live without music but you don't have to bring your mp3's and iPod's at school (there is the school's Campus Radio, what more can you ask for?!), turn off your radio if you can't concentrate, don't go to noisy places if you want to study, don't disturb others with their thing (let them be...)

*it's boring but this will help in studying hard (imagine life without technology??? How lame is that?!?)

behavior and attitude - during the first day of school--try to be in a friendly mood and greet anyone you're familiar with (this will help you be friends with your enemy/ies—that is, if you have any--you don't want to end your high school having someone despising you from afar), make sure you go to school early so you get a seat on the bleachers (even though your buttons are unbuttoned and your skirt is unzipped and your socks are totally different from each other and you haven't eaten your breakfast yet, you have got to not miss that first-day-of-school ceremony--it is, after all, the day when you get to know the teachers handling your section), speaking of breakfast--you will be in your best behavior if you eat your breakfast, lunch and dindin (that's dinner in Timmy's-Imaginary-Friend-Gary lingo--if you watch The Fairly Odd Parents during summer, you'll know what I mean) everyday, respect your teachers at all times (even though they're not worth respecting--if you don't, you'll have problems graduating), you got to have self-discipline if you really want to focus, don't sleep during discussion time (but sometimes it's impossible not to fall asleep especially when the teacher is super boring and so is his/her lesson and also when you didn't sleep well the night before), help in minimizing the noise in the classroom, don't talk too much (class hours is not the time to chat--you are not in Yahoo! Messenger nor in Windows Messenger to do that--besides you have all the time to talk during breaks), no more side comments (it will only make your teacher get mad at you and think that you're a know-it-all girl, this will also make a teacher hate you), no saying of bad words (you have made it this far not to, for others who often curse, it's time to change), don't be boastful and pretend you know everything (people will get irritated at you and get pissed off), don't make a fool of yourself (people will think you're stupid even though you're not--their respect for you is gone forever if you know what I mean), don't be a mean girl, saying bad things about a classmate means you're jealous over her (bad impressions will attack you), don't get affected by the mean looks of the bad girls in your class (they are intimidating and boastful most of the times), share your blessings and they will come back to you a hundred folds (now that's saying something!) but too much of everything is bad (still, have some space for yourself). give chance to others (if nobody in your class knows the answer but you, then that's the time to not give chance to others--do whatever you feel like doing).

DON'T FORGET ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS AND BEST FRIENDS - they are the ones who give you encouragement and power to do stuff (and so are your goals and your dreams and mostly your family--but friends are there most of the time during challenges, if you forget about them, then it's not worth it for them to call you a friend... it would be unfair to them!), don't forget that you have friends from the other sections to borrow school materials when you forgot something at home or when you don't have anything at all (besides, what are friends for anyway if you can't lend each other a hand or more?), even though you're friends, don't lend your I.D., school uniform that you're wearing and your used napkins (first of all--you don't look alike, second--what will your friend wear if you'll get her clothes, third--it's not hygienic for us girls to share each other's sanitary napkins, give her a clean napkin instead!) pay your friends back to all the good things they do for you, don't even think about revenge (fighting evil with evil doesn't always end up good--you'll get in trouble!), people who try to get your friend away from you are part of life's challenges so ignore them and instead--be friends with them, don't let anyone get the best of you (even if she is a friend--it's better to have no friends at all than have friends who put you down and get in your way-->i never thought of this about my friends...), do your best in everything that you do so you can achieve success and feel awesome for yourself, when people criticize you--take it as positively as you can (it's for your own good anyway).

*these are just some ways to get out of social life problems--you probably have more tips for this.

Have a lot of FUN!!! - It’s your last year in high school. make the best out of everything, savor the moments with your favorite teachers and your best pals and classmates, approach your enemy/ies and call it truce forever between you girls, cherish the presence of your friends, tell them everything that you feel and what you think (even if gets dramatic--that's the point of having friends), plan some end-of-exams party--it's the time to go to movies, listen to music, eat delicious foods with your best pals, and do anything else that you would've done when you were studying hard, recite during classes even though your answers turn out to be wrong (it's a school, you're not suppose to know everything), don't let a really low score ruin your life because that's insane! (scores are scores! scores don't always measure how smart you are but they do measure how much you have memorized all your notes and everything there is in the textbook...), all you need is understanding, logical thinking and to know the relevant facts only (this way, you'll have fun looking at your scores for a change!), what's better than spending time with friends on recess and lunch breaks? It’s the time to make noise and do your own thing with your best buds at school! Don’t forget about the prank-after-the-school-year thing (you threw eggs on the blackboard at the end of your second year and you missed to do a prank last school year--> you've never been on the rooftop before so why not do it after you graduate?)

*having fun is not bad; you just need to know the right time to do it.

*MOST IMPORTANT TIP --> ALWAYS FIND TIME TO SPEND WITH GOD!!! (if you don't, most likely, things won't go the right way...)*

~IMPORTANT~
Everything has had been written here to make things at school better and i bet there are more. But the most important things to remember are to:

*BE YOURSELF (if you're going to be yourself, it’s okay not to follow some of the tips here),
*STAY POSITIVE (there is always a good side in anything bad that's happening.),
*KEEP MOVING FORWARD (don't get stuck in the past because past is past!)
*DO YOUR BEST IN EVERYTHING THAT YOU DO (it doesn't matter whether it is big or small!), and
*ALWAYS SMILE AN AMAZING SMILE (a smile a day keeps the grey clouds away!)

And KEEP IN MIND that...
*TOO MUCH OF EVERYTHING IS BAD,
*EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, and
*THERE IS ALWAYS TIME FOR EVERYTHING

GOOD LUCK ON YOUR LAST YEAR IN HIGH SCHOOL...

'cause life isn't so complicated
*results may vary

Coming UP...

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Currently listening to:

I didn't waste time doing nothing at home since Wednesday until today. I made a school survival guide for my last year in high school. I'm going to post it some time before going to school. I'll post it too in my group's blog. As much as I want to link my blog to that blog, I can't. I'm not really close to one of the group members. And also some posts here are about the other member. We are only four in the group so that means only one of the three knows this blog of mine. She told me about her own so it's only fair.

Anyway, my guide can help me and others too alot. It's mainly about how to be awesome by the end of our senior year. It has amazing tips on how to treat teachers and friends; how to spend your allowance and how to take of them; how to be an outstanding student (i should know how because I became an O.S. once in my entire life at school), and how to behave at school and at home so you won't get in trouble. There are also enlightenment inserted somewhere in the guide. Not only that, there is also some of my personal stuff included but they are only a few (you'll identify them quickly if you know me really good).

I'm just trying to figure out on how to post it if it is saved in the computer at home when i only get to surf the net when i'm in the internet cafe every night. Sure i can bring my flach drive but it's too risky to do because it might get infected with virus (and I don't want that)! But of course, i will surely post it here no matter when. There's a story behuind it and I'm thinking of posting the original one ( te one i made last year). The first one was posted in my group's blog but the member whom I am not so close with suggested to translate it to english (since people around the world visits our blog). I told the group that I was inthe process already but the truth is (and I haven't told this to my best friend yet) i just translated it this Wednesday.

More about my "guide"... I kind of copied the style of Ned's Declassified School Survival Guide...

The New American Idol (Season 8)

Mode: happy, proud, and glad
Currently listening to: No Boundaries - Kris Allen

AND THE NEXT AMERICAN IDOL IS... KRIS ALLEN!!!

It Keeps Getting Better and Worse at the same time

Mode: sharing
Currently listening to: Don't Forget - Demi Lovato

Things are getting more and more boring for the past weeks since the review was over. I had nothing productive to do after our review. All that I did for two weeks was sit on the couch and watch television. I didn't even thought of posting here in my blog. How lame is that? And check this. I recall saying that I got used to waking up early because of our review but it only worked for a week because the week after that, I went back to the lazy old me. My plans for studying and reviewing more was scrapped out and up until now I haven't started reading yet my school books that I was suppose to read earlier so I don't have to cram reading them during the school year. Still things keep getting better.

May 1st was Ellen's 1oooth show. I watched it May 5th, its repeat telecast, since we are two episodes behind. I have been watching Ellen ever since the start of May. It airs in 2nd Avenue 8pm. I watch the repeat telecast the next day at 12 noon. It was awesome because they viewed the most hilarious episodes they ever had for the past 999 episodes. There was the guest star whose name I forgot. He was the only guest. There were alot of funny videos that were picked out from youtube, too.

Then came May 10. It was my Brother's 13th Birthday and also was Mother's Day. We had fun celebrating it on both May 9th, Saturday, and the day itself, Sunday. We went to SM North Edsa on May 9, I think and we ate at Barrio Fiesta on Mother's Day (which was also my brother's birthday). It was a double celebration. I have to say. The food there was great but the service was super duper slow. If you ordered at 12 noon flat, for example, your order will be served after 45 minutes but not all your orders are served yet. Even so, I have to admit, their Sizzling Sisig was awesome! I liked it alot even though I had to wait for it for an hour. Can you believe that? I even finished it but not by myself of course. But I ate, like, 3/4 of it. It was delectable!

May 11 was the day when I was suppose to meet my friends at Yellow Cab in Katipunan. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to come because there was no way for me to go there, literally. No one in the family wanted to accompany me in goign there. My Dad said that it was too far away. My mom told me that I can still go if I had someone to go there with but I can't think of any. My friends all have their review in Katipunan so it's easy for them to go there. To be honest, I was super sad that I wasn't able to come with because I was expected to be there and I already had a gift wrapped for my friend's sweet sixteen birthday! Now, you see how life is so unfair to me. I felt even mor sad when my friend told me that I was the only blog/group member who wasn't there. It was also the chance for me to my other friend's gift for her 15th birthday since I wasn't able to produce any durting the month of her birthdate, January.

Anyway... There was fun still yet to come that week. The next day was the third long-bonding time for me and my brother. We had our snacks at McDonald's. We talked about stuff, the usua (of course you don't know our usual talks because it's going to be between me and my brother only).

Then 13th May was an ordinary boring day. What's awesome in that day was when it was comfirmed that my mom and dad decided to take the day off the next day, 14th may. It was because someone has to get me enrolled at school or I won't be able to graduate high school. It was funny because the other parent thought that the other was going to do it instead.

The next day was the school's enrollment day, May 14. I wasn't able to come with my mom who decided to enroll all by herself. So my dad stayed at home with me and my brother and had a bonding moment with the his children at home. Things weren't boring that day when mom got home with our school supplies and my books. (NOTE: It has been a tradition that my mom buys my brother's school supplies in my school because his school sucks and lacks school supplies.) My mom had the time to take a half day at work so she went to her office after eating lunch together as one whole family. When she left, dad got lazy and didn't go to his work anymore. He had his nap then. My brother went in the Internet Cafe in the neighborhood to play DoTA. And I didn't just sit there and watch television. Instead someone saved me from boredom that time. Itwas my old buddy and still best friend.

We had a chat about our Electives this coming school year. Her Elective is all about computer. my elective is all about writing. WE talked on the phone. It took us 99 minutes talking which annoyed my father a little since he was taking nap on the couch near the big couch where I sat and talked to my friend. Even though we ALWAYS take different paths in life, our friendship is as strong as the hardest candy there is; no matter how strong your teeth are, they will never break our candy. Only the saliva of death can melt us down together... Anyway... I said those stuff because I am very impressed with our friendship. We've been friends since the 3rd grade, though we've been classmates since 1st grade. It's a long story... but I promise to tell the story about my experience with friendship some other time. BUt now some more updates on what I have been doing for weeks...

After my dad had a nap that day, my brother and I planned to watch Ned's Declassified School Survival after i talked on the phone and my brother came back home the cafe. But my father woke up and he wanted, I guess, to bond with his two children. So we played cards. That was 4pm to 6pm. After two hours of playing cards, I watched American Idol. I have been psyched up on what's going on in that show ever since I watched the top 7. I've been cheering for Allison but she went home already so I went to focus on Danny. But then he went home last week. Now my vote is on Kris. I like him more than Adam, that's for sure.

The next day, May 15, was nothing but a normal day. There's another series that is added on our list of must-watch-shows/series. The series is an anime. It's very interesting, to be honest. It's called Yu Yu Hakusho or as we like to call it here in the Philippines, Ghost Fighter. It started airing last two weeks ago, I think.

Then this Saturday, May 16, came. It's y grandmother's birthday. Though, she didn't tell us her exact age, I willl ask my dad about it. Today is Monday, May18. Last Saturday was the time when I was supposed to get my hair rebonded in the mall but there wasn't anough time to do it so my brother and I went to the internet cafe at the mall and do whatever we want while mom went to buy groceries. I started writing this post at that Saturday but mom finished early so I wasn't able to finish. So instead of stopping it here on what happened last Saturday, I will continue it until what has happened today.

Sunday, May 17, was the moment of truth. I had to decide if I will push through the process of straightening my hair and make look better and look easier to handle for my mom. I agreed for the reasons that I don't have to arguw with my mom, and i wanted it to get over with already. So it happened for six hours. from 2pm to 8pm. IT was a success and I feel and realize that this is the WORST hairdo i ever had!

Now, i must not wet my straight hair. For if I do, I would've wasted my time sitting inside the parlor letting strange people touch and mess up my hair for my mother. I'm just saying that since I went to the process already, at least have to do my job in maintaining it. Or else, my mom would notice that I don't like it then it's likely that she will surely get mad at me. (there are the words likely ad surely... that means it's either of the two and i know that it's wrong grammar...) In short, I took a bath without lettingmy hair get wet. How hard is that. I'm going back to the parlor this coming Saturday. I want to cut my hair short so I can enjoy it a little. That means bathing without lettin gmy hair get wet for one week starting today.

That's not the only thing etraordinary today. Will you believe me when I say that I just reviewed half of Biology today? Well, yes I did. I resisted the television and the computer this time. It helped me save myself from boredom.

So that's about it. i just wantto remind myself about translating something in english which written by me originally in tagalog. IT's pretty awesome. I;m going to tell story about it too. I also want to post about my friend whom, if she were to read my blog, would not want to be friends with me anymore. It's all about the friend who didn't want to tell me her secret until we had a heart-to-heart talk last March. She's having a hard time now and I want to share things in this blog about me and her. It's going to be a little dramatic and emotional since we've been through a lot more than you think. Her, being my classmate last school year helped me know her more. And I think it's about time anyway that you understand her the way I understood her. I am just waiting for her to open things up with me. When she is ready to tell me everything, I'll be sharing a little with you. That is if I remember sharing it to you...

Anyway... things are getting better as time goes by for me and my friends. BUt it gets worse for myself and my hair and the way I handle my time. I'm not really good at self-discipline but I'm trying control myself one step at a time.

So I hope to post about the things I promise to post about. The onlyh problem I have is time. It's too short. and the world is so unfair. We have a computer at home but its internet speed is slow. We can't use my dad's celphone which has high speed because he complains about how high his bill is.

Anyway... I hope things get better for me more than worse...

It Has Been A LONG Time...

Mode: I'm back!
Currently listening to: My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson

I'm only posting now because this is the only time I've got when my hands are tingling to do something like typing.

Here's what happened for the past days and weeks of April...

First Week - Not much had happened except for eating soft diet for my new lower braces. I'm not allowed to eat anything crispy or hard-to-chew foods.

Second Week - It was very challenging 'cause there were two none working days at that week. I had to compete for the remote control.

Third Week - My birthday was a success, though it was simple and we celebrated it at home. It's my 16th birthday so there were many foods. there was homemade sandstorm, baked macaroni, spaghetti, and double dutch cake from Goldilock's. It wasn't very extravagant but there were a lot of foods which I like and love the most! My birthday, April 14, was supposed to be the start of the reviews for entrance exams at school. It was moved to April 15, birthday of my most favorite seatmate ever!

The first day of review was awesome! The teachers were great and very impressive. I just hope the teacher in math who I fear (he's a guy) won't be my teacher in Trigonometry next school year! The teacher in Physics was somehow boring. But, as time goes by, she can pull some jokes! I hope she'll be our class' teacher next year because it has been said that she is better than the other Physics teacher. The English teacher is awesome! There was never a dull moment except when she discusses, which is something she does very briefly. During discussion, she makes a joke. They're really funny!

Then I believe it was a Sunday when my best and I, along with another friends of ours, went to SM Sta. Mesa to watch a movie. And that very fortunate movie would be... "17 Again", starring the one and only, Zac Efron!!! The movie had a sense of humor, lessons to learn, and a lot of Zac Efron!!! It was amazingly awesome, dude!!! You should try watching it if you haven't seen it!

Fourth Week - The last week of review for summer vacation. We still have Saturday Classes for the next school year for us to refresh our minds of what we have already learned in the review. The last day was not really that memorable, so was the second to the last day. Things weren't that exciting anymore and weren't that fun anymore as well. I got bored. The only constant was that I was late from first day to last day! How cool is that?! But I know that I can't do that during regular classes at school...

Fifth Week - In general, I kinda trained myself last Monday, April 27, to wake up as early as 8am. It was because of the 2-week review. I had to wake up at 6am but still managed to be tardy the whole review.

Anyway, since I had no more reviews, I continue enjoying my summer. I already wrote another poem about boredom. And I learned how to tune my guitar. I just had to go to this site, http://www.chordbook.com/ to guide me in tuning my guitar and many more.

I also developed an interest in the dictionary. I know words that I never thought of encountering in my entire life.

I also went back to my piano. I use it every night to pump me up and make me feel tired so I can go to sleep. You see, my piano has this cool feature that allows itself to play any beat or rhythm that I want. With that beat, I can sing the songs that I already know. Also, I discovered the piano keys I have to press for me to play the background music in Jeopardy. I can also play it in the guitar so every time I watch Jeopardy, 7pm on Velvet, I play the theme on my guitar.

And now that I stay home again, my brother and I cook our breakfast, and snacks. And since I have no plans for this week, I scheduled a check-up with my dentist yesterday and today at 2pm. The dentist pulled some teeth together this time. And it hurt the most yesterday after I left the dentist. Of course, the first thing that I ate after I left the dentist is ICE CREAM to cheer up my gums from the pain that they experienced. But I didn't go home empty handed that day, I got a souvenir from the dentist. She gave me my very own toothbrush and toothpaste! The problem is that i forgot to get it from her yesterday. And I forgot it again today. I will have to get it from her on the next month we meet.

It was cool 'cause that day, yesterday, was also my bonding time with my brother. We ate at McDonald's. We were there for 1 and 1/4 hours. I only ordered plain sundae without anything and regular fries. My brother ordered Chicken Fillet w/ rice and drinks. Then he ordered sundae with chocolate on it.

That was the second long-bonding time we had. The first was last Saturday, the last day of our review. My brother and I had to come with our mother to Trinoma. That was the meeting place of my mom's high school barkada. My brother and I didn't want to tag along them so we explored Trinoma from the second floor to the fourth floor then we went to the ground floor. It was from 3:30pm to 7pm. But before we had a walk around the mall, we ate burritos and nachos in Taco Bell while I narrated 17Again to him because he hasn't seen it yet. We didn't watch a movie that time because all cinemas were already starting the film. We had to wait till 4pm. We didn't want to sit down and watch a movie to kill 2 and 1/2 hours, so we agreed on taking a tour around the mall! =)

Now you know what happened to me this month. This is the first and last post for this month, April since this is the last day of this month. Tomorrow will be the first day of May. 10 days from now is my brother's 13th birthday! But I don't know yet what to give him!!! (maybe he doesn't need one)...

Poems

Mode: Defensive
Currently listening to: All For One - HSM2OST

I posted a poem about brownout because there was a brownout for 6 minutes last Tuesday, I think. I also posted reflections because I wondered why I got perfect scores in those reflections of mine. There will be a sequel to the First Week of Summer. The title fo the sequel is... Second Week of Summer! The poem is still in the process since I'm still waiting for tomorrow to come. Maybe tomorrow I'll finish the poem then on Sunday, I can post it here.

Anyway, for some reasons, one of my "killing-time" activities is writing poems. It is usually all about what I experience or what had happened or what will happen.

Expect more poems. I'm posting them so I can get them critisized. I got to know if I am good at it so I can have a little self-esteem added to me. If I'm not good at it, let me know so I can think of something else to do instead of wasting time writing poems that are not really good and worthless.

Thanks very much for critisizing them! I appreciate it a lot! =)

Brownout

Mode: Idle
Currently listening to: What Time Is It? - HSM2OST

I can only say one thing
It’s so freaking hot!
I can only feel one thing
I’m so freaking hot!

If you ask me what I want
Cold air is necessary
If you ask me what I need
Cold air is a necessity

Now you know what I have to say
Now you know how I feel
And you know what I want
And you know what I need

So please just give me
Some really cold air
‘Cause it is brownout
And I’m freaking out!

If you still don’t get it
Then try turning off your fans
For about ten minutes or more
Then you’ll finally understand

When the sun is shining brightly
Or when the moon is the only light you can see
And the lights and fans at home are turned off
And you get really sweaty without doing anything

This can only mean one thing…
It’s BROWNOUT!
Yeah it is!
Just check it out!

Because it’s brownout
Believe it or not
I know it’s hot.
For crying out loud!

(Note: These are potential lyrics of a new song. All there's left is the music and a little edit will do.)

First Week of Summer

Mode: Poetic (not really)
Currently listening to: Tonight - Jonas Brothers

Waking up every morning
Realizing, it’s 11:30 already
Going down the stairs slowly
Thinking about what to do for today

Then I ask my bro
“Hey, dude, what’s for breakfast?”
He answers back and says,
“Look in the microwave or at the table.”

But it’s already noon
The sun rises up fully in the sky
It’s too late for breakfast
It’s too early for lunch

So I decided to eat brunch
On my plate with my spoon and fork
Then my stomach reacts
As if it is saying “Dude, eat some more!”

After filling up my stomach and washing the dishes
It now depends, what happens next
If I feel hot, I’ll take a bath
If I feel lazy, I’ll do it later

To kill time, my brother and I take turns
In using the computer and watching the television
When the other’s turn is finally over
There is an exchange of activity.

When the clock strikes at 7:30pm,
There is no way I can’t help but not to miss
A TV Anime series
Which I watch in Animax

If I missed it or watched half way
I’ll hurry up in the morning to watch it at 11:30am
If I do catch it and watch it full, this happens when mom and dad go home late
I will surely have a wonderful night.

But the day doesn’t end
Without asking my mother
“What’s for dinner?”
Then she answers, “Something really delicious!”

We eat dinner on a wooden table
That is square in shape and is foldable.
After eating, I sometimes wash all the dishes
Or fix the table or refill some empty bottles

When time allows it
I still get to watch
Hannah Montana and Wizards of Waverly Place
And sleep at 10pm.

When my dad tells us to go up stairs and the time reads 9:00,
I take my medicine and give everyone in the family a goodnight kiss
I would then go up stairs and go to bed
And pray to God then shot my eyes.

It's an Awesome Life!

Mode: Happy
Currently listening to: Train Wreck - Demi Lovato

Early at night I lie to bed
And rise like an early bird to eat my bread.
I sleep and wake up with no hesitations.
With 8 hours of sleep, I have no irritations.

Everyday, there are foods that I need to eat.
They are vegetables, carbohydrates, and meat.
With these kind if foods, I’ll have a balanced diet.
When I eat them, my stomach will have to keep quiet.

It’s okay to help people,
Especially in times of their troubles.
But we must not over do it
So they can learn themselves how to solve it.

God loves us unconditionally.
Therefore, we must pay him back equally
By loving God forever and always,
And our neighbors as we love ourselves.

Something I Wrote About Our Class Retreat

Mode: Reminiscing
Currently listening to: Full Circle - Miley Cyrus

I. Personal Faith Experience

I was excited to go to the retreat to the point that I had a little leftover of my lunch at school. When we were in the bus and asked to watch the documentary, I was bored so I watched only the first parts and the last parts. In between, I was either talking to my classmates or looking outside the window. When we got to the place, I was mostly excited to see our Dorm (A). It wasn't exactly what I thought it looked like but I thanked God that I was in that dorm and not anywhere else.

Our class had a recollection in a glass room. It was really awesome. Our first activity was to imitate an animal as a group. Our group chose to be a penguin. Then we had our merienda. We had toron and other snacks from us. It was satisfying. Then we started with our real activity. We got our malong and our coloring materials with the drawing book. We read stories through the PowerPoint. During the reading of the stories, I came to appreciate the galaxies, the sun, the planets, the moons and stars more than I did before since it was explained to us how God created them. We did two stories then we had dinner. After dinner, we gazed at the stars. We were divided in groups. In the group that I was in, we talked about things. After the star gazing, we did the third story and gave a star and a rose to anyone who we wanted to give it. In my part, I have to say that I was pretty much surprised to those who gave their star and rose to me. I didn’t expect any from them. I was only expecting to receive from Belay since we exchanged stars and roses. Then we had our midnight snack. I didn't eat because I was full already from dinner. The most unforgettable story that I heard was "The Four Candles". It was amazing on how it was animated. Then we went to our dorms and slept. We didn't actually sleep at once since we had to pray the rosary first. After we prayed the rosary, I tried to sleep already because if don't sleep at least seven hours, I'll get sick the next day. We finished the rosary at 12am. I wasn't able to sleep well since some of my classmates were still talking and chatting. I didn't sleep in straight hours because of the noise. I wake up at 5am then after 5 minutes, I took a bath. It took me about 15 to 20 minutes to take a bath since I was still sleepy. The cold water gave me little energy to get the day started. I was able to walk around with my friends and took a couple of pictures. Then we had breakfast. Considering that I was still really sleepy that morning, I only ate about five spoonfuls of rice with eggs. I didn't finish my champorado because I didn't feel like eating it. I wasn't able to make milo because I felt lazy to make one. Then we head back to the glass room and listened to the fourth and final story. Then we made our last and biggest mandala. During the story telling, I was sleepy to the point that I closed my eyes and slept for minutes. I wasn't able to understand the story much. I made an extra mandala so I can make a star when I put all my mandalas together. It was amazing. I finished it early. Then we had recess. We had kutsinta. I didn't finish my last piece of kutsinta because I accompanied Mrs. Garcia to by food souvenir. Then we went back inside the glass room and had our last activity: the Mass. I didn't have much energy to sing and respond. To be honest, I took a sleep during the Homily. I prayed to God after the mass and said sorry for not participating in the Mass.

When everything was over, we went outside to relax. We took some wonderful pictures with our classmates while we were outside. I had attempts in injecting my Flash drive in the laptop that was left on the table on the corner and play some music since my friends and I were bored since we had nothing else to do but to wait for the signal to go in the bus. My conscience got into me and decided to do other things for fun. When we got in the bus, the first thing that I did was to go to sleep. So I did until we reached STC gate 2. As soon as we got there I already took a tricycle and went home so I can go to sleep in a place more comfortable.

II. Insights

The documentary about the animals was boring. The place was awesome and definitely all about nature since there were plants all over. The stories were good to reflect on. It wasn't too hot or too cold. I reflected much to the stories and was able to see that God is indeed powerful. He created all things well and saw that it was good especially the human beings. Based on my experience, I didn't lose hope in having a great time even though I was sleepy in the end. About the Four Candles, I realized through the story that the world can lose love, peace, and faith but should always have hope left in them. There is always hope in being a star to everyone. In the stories, I came to appreciate other God's creations that are located far away from the Earth.

Something I Wrote in One of My Reflections

Mode: Reminiscing
Currently listening to: Burnin' Up - Jonas Brothers

GOD, SPOTTED IN MY LIFE!!!
God has been with me until right now, as I am writing, through my parents. They tell me to be a good girl all the time by advising me not to say bad words and to finish all my homework now so I will free time tomorrow, Tuesday. I know that God is here today through my friends who put me on the right track just like my parents.

God can be anything and anybody in my daily life which and who guides me through life. He could be my parents who give and tell what's best for me. He could be my brother who always keeps me company when mom and dad are at work. He could be one of my best friends who makes me laugh and happy. He could be one of my best friends who tell me to be myself all the time and to control myself just in case I get talkative.

God can be some things and persons that make my day wonderful. He could be my alarm clock which wakes me up in the morning. He could be the hot water that I put into my Milo every morning to remind me to straighten up and get ready for school. He could be my tricycle driver who drives me to and from school so I can be safe. He could be the traffic enforcer who makes sure that I cross the street safely. He could be my one of my classmates who greets me in the morning so I start the day happily. He could be the warning bell at school which reminds everyone that it's almost recess, lunch, or dismissal; or it's time to line up and get ready for the next subject. He could be one of my teachers who teach me on how to become a good follower of Jesus. He could be the cockroach inside our classroom which reminds us to clean our room because it is already dirty. He could be the key of our room which will guard our room so no one can steal stuff from us while we are gone.

God can be in any form of safety and healthy gear. He could be Mrs. Sacdalan who reminds us to discipline ourselves so we get out of trouble. He could be the manongs and manangs who serve us food in the cafeteria and make sure that what we eat is healthy and safe. He could be the water in my water jug which refreshes me after P.E. classes, after I eat recess and lunch, and when I am just plane thirsty. He could be the food I eat everyday which energizes me to do activities.

God can be any of my school materials that help me in school works. He could be my pen which I use to write creative essays, poems, themes, and notes. He could be my reviewer or my notes which help me prepare for tomorrow's tests. He could be my school books which helps me in studying the lessons at school. He could be my guardian angel who secretly tells me the answers to the questions in the exams and quizzes so won't have the reason to cheat.

God could be anything that comforts me. He could be the trees which shades us from the too much warmness of the sun. He could be my umbrella which protects me from the rain. He could be my jacket which makes me warm when I am cold. He could be the electric fan which cools me down when I am burning up in sweat. He could be any of the benches which I sit on so I can rest my feet when I am tired. He could be my wallet which is the place where I put my money in and something that I bring with me so it would be safe. He could be my house where I eat, clean, and sleep with my family. He could be one of the people or persons who give me criticisms and tells me that I still have things to change so I can be a better person. He could be the sun after the rain which symbolizes that there is hope in everything.

God can be anything that makes me enjoy life. He could be one of the members of my favorite boy band who entertains me and relaxes me. He could be the one of the reporters and writers of the newspaper who keeps me updated in what's happening around me. God remains present in my life as I go through life everyday. I believe that He is with me all the time even though I don't see Him.

Operation: "BRACES"

Mode: NERVOUS!!!
Currently listening to: Burnin' Up - Jonas Brothers

GUESS WHAT????????

I'm going to have FINALLY my very own SCARY BRACES!!!!! Actually, the PROCESS of having braces is the one that is SCARY!!! I'll be having them stick on my lower teeth this Thursday!!! That's 3 days from now!!! I hope that this day wouldn't come!!! I'm FREAKING OUT!!! I don't show it to my parents so they won't lecture me why I need it and why I have to get them on my teeth. Still... AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I'm going to look more like a nerd! Just like a friend of mine who is really a nerd with matching glasses and braces and pony-tailed hair (but I think she'll cut her hair this summer). I'm goin to look MORE like a nerd because I have curly hair in addition with my glasses and braces! YIKES!!!

ANd I thought this summer will be awesome since I won't be reviewing with THEM in LSC. That's because I'll be reviewing in STC with a friend from long ago, back then in elementary. Though we've been friends since then, I don't think we consider ourselves bestfriends. Especially not since we don't hang out anymore. Thank goodness I enrolled in STC with her so we can have bonding time during review. I can't wait till my birthday! That's the start of our review. I'm going to treat her in McDonald's! i don't know if my other friends whom I invited last march 13 will really go there at 4:00pm. I don't know.

Oh, well. On April 7th, I'm going out with my friends. I think we're going again in ENhanted Kingdom. I'm going to affirm it with them if where are we really going.

Anyway... Thinking about March 26, 2009, Thurday is really scary and frightening for me. I don't know what time is the "OPERATION" will be but I don't want to know. On second thoughts, I have to so I'll get my teeth done really good.

People of the world, PLEASE! I'm BEGGING you all who have or already had braces! Give me ADVICES, or better yet, ENCOURAGEMENT so I can go to the dentist on THursday without getting NERVOUS!!!

That's all! I'M GOING TO DIE!!! I KNOW THAT IT'S GOING TO BE PAINFUL!!!

So help me goodness... PEACE!!!

Things-that-happened-before-Summer Recap

Mode: I don't know...
Currently listening to: Summertime - The Click Five

yo! It has been a long time. No updates yet. Maybe there's a few an here it goes...

I don't know the exxact dates so I'll just narrate the things that were happening to me when I was not posting.

Last last last week, I think it was the week of doing alot of requirements like maybe... making the issue analysis, doing the micropaper or writing a formal theme. Or... performing Wayang Kulit, doing the culminating activity in music, or delivering the speech for our symposium. I'm not really sure whether these things happend on the said week but I think some of them happened and were continued last last week or last week. But I am sure that we had our exams last week and had a day rest last Wednesday.

That's what happened at least in general. Here are things that i can't forget until now.

Last Wednesday March 4, 2009, we had our Achievement Tests for the subjects Algebra, English, Chemistry, Filipino, and Geometry (yes, that's right. we had separate tests for Geom and Algeb).

Last Friday March 6, 2009, I had a heart-to-heart talk with the friend who has been the topic for quite some time. I opened up to her and she opened up to me. We shared what we felt, we shared problems to each other (at least that's what I think happened). But even though that happened, i think I will have to live the life I currently had last time since Feb. 2 which was the time when I felt that there was something wrong and the time when I realized that I was being pushed away in so many different ways. ever since that day, when I open my computer, I played the song Pushing Me Away by the JB. It is not mentioned in my posts that I was currently listening to that because that's the only one playing on my playlist. I'll get bored with a song so appropriate that I don't even want to sing or hear it play again. I'm complicated and hard to firgure out sometimes. So just skip the sentence before the sentence before this. Anyway, more on this later.

Last Monday March 9, 2009, a friend told me that the last screening of the Jonas Brothers Burnin' Up Concert in 3D will be on Wednesday March 11, 2009. So I told her that I can't watch it anymore. We were suppose to watch it together in SM North Edsa The Block Cinema 1. Then awhile ago, I read the broadsheet "Manila Bulletin". I saw with my own very eyes the part of the newspaper that read "JONAS BROTHERS IN 3D" on the column of the SM Cinema The Block in bold letters. That means that the movie is still being sreened and shown to the mall. But I believed her when I noticed that all the malls except the The Block were not showing the JB's concert anymore. Now, I still haven't watched it yet and I know that there will be no chance for me to watch it anymore. I asked my mom to allow me to watch the movie while we were in the mall (SM North Edsa) awhile ago. But she didn't allow me no matter how I begged her. When she made up her mind, I didn't have much of a choice but to listen to her and stop begging so she won't get mad at me. I hope it will still be shown until the last week of the month so I still have the chance to ask my other friends to watch the movie with me. The ticket costs Php301.00.

Schedule of our exams last week:

• Monday - Advanced Algebra and Practical Exam in TLE
• Tuesday - Social Studies and Religion
• Wednesday - rest day
• Thursday - Communication Arts in English and Chemistry
• Friday - Geometry and Communication Arts in Filipino

Last Friday March 13, 2009, my two friends and I went to McDonald's retiro to celebrate the last of the school year 2008-2009. We ate of course and talked about different things like college and our pets.

Yesterday, I pretty much didn't do anything. Just lied on the couch turned the television on and changed the channel to either Myx, MTV, Nickelodean, or Disney Channel. Sometimes I check out the channels Star World, Star Movies, HBO, Velvet, LIfestyle Network, Maxxx, Foxcrime, AXN, Animax, ETC, 2nd Avenue and sometimes local channels like ABS-CBN, GMA-7, and QTV. Then I also ate breakfast, lunch, merienda, dinner and midnight snack (I didn't have time for recess since I woke up at 9am).

Today, my brother, my mom, and I went to SM North Edsa. We shecked out the newly built Annex. It was like Trinoma; only it had more gadget stores than shopping stores. Some clothe stores and restaurants were soon to open. The sad part was the Max's restaurant in the main bulding of the mall was closed for renovation. So we didn't have a chance to eat lunch there. We ate lunch at the main building and bought things that need replacements at home and also groceries. Then we went back to Annex to have some merienda. There they, the Annex, had Dairy Queen, Pizza Hut, French Baker, KFC and other new restaurants. Before going home, I bought a new hamster in Bio Research! It was a little disappointing 'cause t hey didn't have a white male hamster anymore. All of them were a half white, half brown. So I got the whitest of them all. Now, we have two hamsters again. More about the hamsters later.

Now, I can feel summer! That's because I can feel the heat. I am also playing pop songs and summertime songs. So if you know other summer songs, just type it/them in on your comments.

That's for now. This post will have to remind me of other things that I will post later or maybe tomorrow.

See ya then!

Catcha Later!

Mood: happy
Currently listening to: Break Out - Miley Cyrus

Speech is over and all I have to do today the movie analysis for the movie: "Bata, Bata, Paano Ka Ginawa?". I haven't started yet but i'm going to start now. More posts after I do my homework.

Catcha later!

After all the quizzes...

Mode: lazy
Currently listening to: Forever and Always - Taylor Swift

The time when the last long test of the day was over (TLE), I felt like a big pile of things on my shoulders fell down the fire burning on the floor all throughout the day!

We didn't have a quiz in Chemistry. It was cancelled. The TLE long test was hard besause i didn't study that well yesterday.

Anyway, I'm just happy that this day is over. Tomorrow will be the continuation of our play in Filipino. But I'm still the narrator. So. I'm just chillaxing now. Playing music in the computer, posting here in my blog, maybe watching tv later.

That's all!

Answers!!!

Mode: studying
Currently listening to: Fearless - Taylor Swift

It's time to answer the questions given yesterday.

My group mates didn't get mad at me. Our head directer was a little disappointed because all of us where almost complete yesterday during practice. Only three didn't attend and I'm one of them.

I didn't have to explain the article. Thank God, our group is done with everything including the prayer service. The teacher probably let me off the hook or she probably forgot about it. So I didn't have to cry. Instead, during the half of the period, during the activity of the next group, I ended laughing really hard mainly because I felt awkward sitting beside a classmate that I have never been seated with and that I am not close with. That's part of the activity so it was unavoidable.

The play didn't go well. We skipped many of scenes because the group directors wanted the play to be finished before the bell rings or else it will be cut and left unfinished. I thought that if the play is cut, it couldn't continue anymore. I was wrong; the teacher gave us ten minutes extension next meeting. In the ten-minute extension, we should be able to finish the play. Our group planned to do scenes that we practiced and the last two chapter scenes which are romantic. My friend was close to crying but instead, for the very first time, she said bad words.

I wasn't able to narrate properly. They gave me an extra job. They told me to continue their lines if ever they forget theirs. It was obvious that their lines were forgotten since I was saying their lines. We stopped continuing their lines because it was a disaster. And no, I didn't jumbled the words I was suppose to say.

Oh yeah! I didn't receive yet my certificates today. I don't know when but I'll get them surely before the last day or even before the exams starts.

Anyway, I killed many of time already. Still have to study for the following:

Quizzes:

• Geometry
• English
• Chemistry

Long Tests:

• Social Studies
• Technology and Livelihood Education (T.L.E.)

Speaking of Social Studies, my teacher in that subject calls me to recite even though I was not raising my hand to answer or share about what the topic related to our lessons. It's really weird!

I have to go now! I have to study if I want good grades, you know...

See ya then!

Questions...???

Mode: Sleepy
Currently listening to: Get Back - Demi Lovato

I suck 'cause I had all the time I had awhile because students in all grade and year level don't have classes today. I didn't do much!!! That's why I suck. All I did was to do my Advanced Algebra Homework. Then when I was fixing my things just now, I remembered that I still have to explain the contextualization part of our report in Religion about an article in the Magazine called World Mission, December 2008 issue, and it's all aboutus, human beings doing harmful things to the world. That's the main idea and I have to elaborate on it and connect it to the stinking fifth beatitude. What more can I say about the topic??? I'm not a freaking expert in speaking in front of people and talk about something I don't even care.

Another is that we had a group general rehersal today but I didn't come to practice because I was too lazy to come. My groupmates texted me and called me on the cellphone but fortunately for me, the awesome cellphone was wit my mmom who was in her office. I told her that we hade practice today and told her to tell my classmates that I'm not coming anymore because I was not allowed by her. My groupmates would understand especially since my mom was the one who they called and texted and had a conversation with. I wonder what happened during the practice.

Will they get mad at me tomorrow??? Will I be able to explain the article the way I'm expected to??? Will I be crying in the end because the teacher is disappointed that I didn't do well with the explanation? But the biggest question of all is: Will our play be successful and be pleasing to the audience or is it going to be a disaster and my friend would cry and sob and the play will be cancelled because it is obvious that the group is not prepared? Last thing, will I be able to narrate properly all the things I have to narrate or will I be jumbling the words that I will be reading tomorrow?

Oh yeah, I haven't taken home all three of my certificates. I'm still waiting for the teacher to give them to me so my parents would believe me that I did join the stinking quiz bee. Will get the certificates tomorrow???

So many questions, so little chance for me to get advantage in all these situations.

See you tomorrow for answers... I'm sleepy!

See ya then! :)

Done Watching...

Mood: ...
Currently listening to: nothing

I just finished watching Bata, Bata, Paano ka Ginawa. Anyway, I'm gonna do my homework now.

See ya then!

My Life Sucks A Lot and Rocks A Little

Mood: sad
Currently watching to: Bata, Bata Paano Ka Ginawa

my life sucks in so many ways...

• We have a practice for the Play in Filipino today... And everyone has to attend. I think I'm the only one is not there. I feel like a useless member of the group. The reason why I can't attend is because my mother didn't allow me. Her reason s because my dad texted her and told her that his office is in a brown out situation and the rain is pouring heavily. But here at home, I the rain is is just light and there is no brown out. I had to call my classmate to tell her that I can't come with her on the way to the court where the group is suppose to practice. I feel bad about myself because last night I already told her that my parents agree for me to go to the practice. Now, I feel that tomorrow they will get mad at me. I can see right now the face of my friend who is the leader of the group. She is probably crying or really pist off or really mad at me. I don't think I can show myself to her or to my groupmates tomorrow. I'm scared to death now.
• We have a homework in Filipino about making a summary of all the Chapters of the novel we read, about making Character Analysis on the characters of course, and about their very important dialogues. We are suppose to just write them in our notebooks but unfortunately for me, I forgot my notebook in my locker. I almost forgot, too, about this homework. It's a good thing that my classmate group mailed about if she can print hers instead. That reminded me of the homework. What sucks is that I shouldv'e done the homework two days ago.
• Our Advanced Algebra teacher always gives us advance homework. if we do the a.h., we can get extra points. I always get that kind of homework done the day she gives it. now, I haven't done the most recent one and I haven't finished the last one yet.
• I could've done the advance homework if it weren't for my math notebook, running out of pages. We went to the NBS yesterday and I totally forgot about the stinking notebook. Now, even though I like to start answering the homework, I can't. I still have nowhere to write the answers.

Though it sucks a lot, it rocks a little bit...

• My mom found a way so I can watch "Magnifico" and "Bata, Bata Paano Ka Ginawa?". These are movies that we have to watch individually or in group. These are part of the lessons for us to learn in the Filipino subject. We rented a VCD of Magnifico and a DVD of Bata, Bata yesterday. I finished watching MAgnifico last night. Now, I'm somewhre in the middle of the movie Bata, Bata.
• It's a good thing I didn't come to the practice, too. Now, I have time to finish the movie and do the homework.

That's all! I wish tomorrow will never come...

Today at School for Three Hours after Dismissal (and other things too!)

Mood: Tired
Currently listening to: Breathe - Taylor Swift

Today is our school's Personnel's Day! This is the day when we give gifts and thoughtful cards/letters to our teachers and apologize the things that made them sad and mad at our class. This is also the time when we get to know our teachers better. This is the day when the teachers celebrate and have a little rest from work by going home early!

We usually go home at 3:10pm from school during Fridays. Today, we go home at 2:25pm! Unfortunately for almost all the Juniors (including me), they have to stay until 5:00pm-5:30pm to practice for our current play: Maganda Pa Ang Daigdig. It is really pain because instead of resting at home in an early time or do whatever some of us want to do, we have stay in school and do some effort to at least perfect our group presentation.

So our group went home at 5:30pm. For some, the time alloted for practice (2:25pm-5:30pm) wasn't enough. For me, it was more than enough to practice at least 5 scenes given that the time was long. I didn't do much during the pracrice because I was just the narrator and kinda director (not really). So I just waited for my turn to speak. My lines are really short and since I am the narrator, I didn't need to memorize my lines.

So what exactly did I do at school for the whole 3 hours and 5 minutes? From 2:25pm-3:30pm, three of my group members and I went to National Bookstore to buy materials to make our backdrop/background. On the road, we stopped by McDonald's. The three of us bought sandae cone and the other one bought regular fries and coke float. We took a lot of time in the bookstore because we spent time in looking for the notebook. I didn't come along for the materials needed, I came along because I was suppose to buy a Math Notebook since I only have 3 pages left in my other one. We didn't find one so we left with the materials needed only. Then we went back to school.

When we got to where our other groupmates were, we sat on the grass and waited for someone to boss us around and say what we have to do. One group member told us to paint the drawing that was written in pencil. So we did. The only problem was we weren't able to do it the way she wanted it to look like. So she was freaking out because it was ugly for her. So we did something else like practice our lines. Since I didn't need to memorize my lines, I just practiced the way I should deliver them. But that was a little easy so I finished a little earlier. So what I did was to join the other two directors of the group and direct a little. Then I read my lines when it was may turn. Then I watched them act. After that, some of my other classmates who brought their camera took pictures with me. For the rest of the time, that was what I was doing. When it was 5:00pm, I left the group and went home. And that's how practice went. Some painted the whole time, some were acting and eating.

A little update on my school life, she cried again and said that she was stressed in general. I asked her for details but she won't tell. She also told me that she is sad. Then I replied and said that I am feel sadder than her ever since... then I didn't continue and decided not to tell her. Then during dismissal when we wen to NBS, she asked me again why was I sad and ever since when. I didn't tell her still. To be honest, I was really sadder than her but I was not sure when it began so I just said that it's a secret why and when i was sadder than her. In short I kinda played her mind into figuring out why and when. Now, too, when our class go to one venue to the other, I go there by inserting myself somewhere in the middle of the line with other classmates. It was awkward to walk, I have to admit, when you are walking somewhere where you do not know anyone or are not close to anyone. So I tried to talk to the person in front and at the back of me when I insert myself. It was changelling but it is an opportunity to talk to every person in the class. =)

I'm feeling a little better since I already told her the fact that she doesn't tell me the reasons why she cries, or why is she sad. I also told her what I experience when she is with her ka-chika buddies. Now, I am paranoid to her when she cries. When she cries, I try my best to ignore her and to actually not comfort her since I don't connect to her anymore. Maybe I connect to her a little but I guess the line between us is breaking up. I'm afraid that next school year I might not be as close to her as I used to before. I have this gut feeling that so much will happen to her with her ka-chicka buddies that they won't tell me and they'll laugh about something I don't know. Or maybe they'll tell among themselves about their summer experience and I won't be able to connect.

Recently, when I hanged out with another new friend who is a Social Studies Nerd, we have been talking about graduation and leaving the school for good. She too has some issues like mine. In fact, her best friend is one of my friend's ka-chicka buddy. So we face the school world, this school year, a little similarly. It's good to have her as a friend in the class. I opened up to her last week wednesday during our T.L.E. when my friend started crying and the only persons whe tells her story to is her ka-chicka buddy/ies. I felt really bad and ignored at that time that's why I decided to release what I felt. The feeling was torturing me every time I experienced it. It's a good thing that I told it to the right person or else, if she wasn't the right one, she could've told my friend already. If my friend knew about it, then it would just be fine because I know that we're friends and if gets mad, I wouldn't care more.

That's all. This has been another heart-to-heart session about me. I have to go to sleep now! Tomorrow will be a special day for my mom since tomorrow is Valentine's Day and at the same time, her birthday, too! She told me not to buy her a flower anymore so I bought secretly. I am currently keeping the white rose I bought her, before I went home inside my bag, placed in a plastic with water so it won't wither. Tomorow is also the Parent Consultation on Career Decision-Making. Everyone is expected to be there at 7:30am. We are planning to go there at 8am. I'll be going with my mother since my dad has to go with my brother in his school's Family Day.

That's all! I really have to sleep now! Goodnight! =)

It's The Time of My LIFE!!! - Continuation

Mood: guilty
Currently listening to: The Best Day - Taylor Swift

I almost forgot... last week, Friday, we got the certificates from the quiz bee. Our team were second place in the hands-on part of the quiz bee!!! Our team also grabbed third place in the overall thing. When our names were said in front of the whole High School Department, I attempted to jump up and down again just like last time. But what made me stop was the principal and directress presence who were the once who gave the certificates.

One thing that gave me my attention that time while holding the cheap certificates of our school was my name written in the wrong spelling!!! It spelled - Darryl - which was WRONG!!! so when the better math teacher in the school proctored us (he was the other geometry/trigonometry/algebra/facilitator of the mathletes), I complained (just a little bit). He said he'll take it back and change the spelling of my name. What a dude. He was awesome too! The class had fun with him during the geometry period. I wish he'll be the class' trigo teacher next school year...

I feel guilty because I haven't started anything yet!

Gotta go na!

They just need to come out...

Mood: Fresh feeling
Currently listening to: Love Story - Taylor Swift

We had our practical exam in P.E. a while ago. My team got the third place in overall in our class. And I wasn't the reason for that. I didn't contribute anything to the team. I stood there waiting for the ball to touch the ground or get hit by one of my team members. I served the ball and wished it fell in the court not out. I felt useless. But it was fine.

I feel fresh now because I took a bath to get rid of all the sweat. I didn't do much but the court was warm.

About the post before this, I still like and am friends with the friend I talked about. I just wanted to release my inner thoughts of what is happening to me during school hours.

I still have to study for our Chemistry Long Test tomorrow, and do a reflection for my seatmate. I am suppose to include in my to-do list the advanced homework in Advanced Algebra. I felt lazy in bringing home the thickest book so I don't have it now and I plan to do it tomorrow.

Tomorrow, I will go home at 5:30 pm because we have practice for the play in Filipino about the novel "Maganda Pa Ang Daigdig". I'm the narrator/director (although I don't act like a director).

I'm listening to Taylor Swift's album: Fearless. My Jonas Brothers/Miley Cyrus/Demi Lovato/Selena Gomez/Taylor Swift/Disney Channel buddy burnt a copy of the Album for me. She is so cool. I'll link her blog to mine when I have the time to link the blogs I wanted to link to.

Anyway, I'm all alone at home right now. My brother attended the procession of the Our Lady of Lourdes. I'm enjoying my Home-alone experience today so bye for now!

Lots of things to do so little time...

IT'S NOT FAIR!!!

Mood: I feel so pist off!!!
Currently listening to: This Is Me - Demi Lovato

A little thing that anyone should know about me is that I hate secrets especially when they are kept away from me. People with secrets are, in my opinion, insecure. If anyone would know about there secret, they fear that people might not treat them right. But one thing they don't know is that they are supported at all times by those people who care about them.

You see, the thing is, what really hurts is when your friend whom you know more than anyone in a group of new faces, has an experience or story that she is not telling you but is telling to othrs whom she has known for months only. You ask her, "what is it all about" and all she says is "you'll kick my ass if you knew" whatever that is. Because of this, instead both of you are bonded together as friends, you get more and more separated from her since you don't know what's happening in her life and about her. How the heck will you know her better if she doesn't update you when you ask for an update? The part which makes you wish you weren't her frind is when you figure that she is telling her update to another person other you, who asked first.

Everytime the two of you walk together to go to another venue where the class will be held, a classmate approaches and asks if she can borrow your friend for a moment and talk to her about secrets you shouldn't hear that's why they have to be away from you. This leaves you to yourself alone in the corridor going to where the class is suppose to go. If you see a person who you can walk with, other than your friend who is "borrowed away from you", you yourself will find a reason for walking with her so she doesn't feel being used by you since you have no one to walk with.

Another reason why you wish you weren't her friend is because during free period when the teacher is late, you find yourself sitting with her but not talking to her which is the main reason why you seated beside her in the first place. Then you feel like moving a seat away from her because you don't want to see her and the person, who she is talking to, whisper or mouthing what they have to say to each other since it is a secret. Everytime a person talks to her, you have to back off a little so you won't hear what they are talking about. You just look away when they laugh about something you don't even know about.

Then she tells one secret. She also tells you not to tell anyone. You know that she'll get mad when you tell anyone so you keep it a secret. Then you find yourself in a situation where she accidentally blurts it out and tells to the people who heard to not to tell anyone about it. Then one of the people who heard it spreads it out and she doesn't even get mad at that person. Then you think about that situation where you think that what if you were the one who told the secret. You'll think and guess that she won't talk to you for a day and that she won't tell you any more secrets.

And to think that she is suppose to do all of these things with you and that she should be considering you more since both of you had a foundation to your friendship and all that's left is to build it up more so it won't break down into pieces. You don't want your hardwork into building your friendship be put into waste just like that. She doesn't mean to do these things with others instead of you. But the process you are going through and the thoughts that go into your head are holes that can bring down such friendship.

She is friends of course with those she shares secrets with. They very fortunate to know a lot about my friend more than I know her. That's why, because of this realization in life, I have decided to tell my bestfriend about the website of this blog. My bestfriend can judge me in any way she wants. She is my best friend after all. She understands me that's why I have a lot of fun when I'm with her. There is never a boring moment with her. True, there are times when the two of us are out of things to say to each other but being with her makes me happy already. I hpe she feels and thinks the same way. If not, it's fine me too! We don't have secrets from each other. That's why I felt unfair to her because she tells and allows me to visit and read about whatever she writes in her blog and I don't want her to know whatever I post in my blog and won't even tell her mine when I changed the web address.

On Monday, I am ready to tell her my web address and let her read everything in this blog. I'll just tell her not to tell anyone. It will be our own little secret, just the two of us. This a simple kind of revenge that I can think of. It's a bad revenge but it's the one thing I got that my other friend doesn't know about.

What sucks and rocks is that next school year, we will surely make another term paper about a different novel. In our school, we do the term paper as a pair. My partner is my friend who seems to be the topic of this post. Next school year, she surely won't be my partner because she already made arrangements with another classmate. Now, I am forced to pair myself with a classmate who I have been sitting beside ever since my first year in High School. She is the only one I got who is serious yet fun to be with too. It sucks because my friend who the topic is the best in the class and that's something that everyone in the class has to admit. If don't work with her, then I guess my term paper next school year won't be as good as what the two of us are doing now. What rocks is that she doesn't have to boss me around next school year in doing the term paper since she won't be my partner anymore.

It's not fair because I should be knowing her better and getting close to her since I am her friend for three or four years.

Now you know how I am and what I go through during class hours. I only get to hang out with my bestfriend and leave my friend during recess and lunch time.

Writing all fo these things that are trapped and now set free in my head makes me feel a lot better. I feel the best if my best friend would read this post.

So chow for now!

I'll sign in to Yahoo! Messenger to give her an instant message containing the web address of this blog of mine. Some of these are things I already told her.

Bandfest!!!

Mood: happy
Currently listening to:We Rock - Camp Rock

Yesterday was a very rock n' roll night! WE had our bandfest at our school. I went to there with my friend and bestfriend and another friend. I totally had fun with them! There were bands from the school itself and mands outside the school. The best part was when Chicosci played their music! It was awesome! They did medley songs. They sang, other than their songs, That's What You Get, I Kissed A Girl, Hot N' Cold, and Single Ladies. Although I wasn't a fan, I enjoyed because everyone was jumping, screaming, and singing really loud!!! I screamed, too!

There was this not so famous band that also played last night. The band's name was Hansom (I'm not sure of the spelling). The band was compose of three brothers. The lead singer/guitar was a mixture of Nick and Joe Jonas! That's why I had a crush on him that night.

I only ate a barbeque and a jumbo hotdog (Purefoods, of course). The barbeque was made by the faculty of the school. A lot of people bought more barbeque than the siomai they also sold. I only had water. This was the only bandfest where I was able to enjoy and have fun but ate only few since I spent most of the time in the court where the bands and dancers performed (foods and drinks were not allowed in). Everyone did a great job, by the way especially the band that sang Burnin' Up by JB. After that and another song that they sang, my brother and I went home (he went with me then we splitted up). My brother was with his friends from his school. HE also had fun.

So went to the bandfest at 6pm and left at 10pm. That's a long time to have fun for a night!

I had a great night! I slept at 10:30pm and woke at 10:45am awhile ago.

That's all about last night. The next posts will be about thoughts that were supposed to be posted days, weeks, and months ago. This is the only time I have to post them.

It's The Time of My LIFE!!!

Mood: Awesome!!!!!
Currently listening to: Start the Party - Camp Rock

Aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yaaaaahhhhhooooooooooooo!!!!!!! Yehhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeyyyy!!!!!

I feel so great!!! My team won the third prize in the Math and Science Quiz Bee awhile ago at 12:40pm to 3:10!

At first, my team and I thought that we didn't make it since there was no third year on our team during the difficult round. It turned out that we made enough points to catch up on the third place! I jumped up and down, left and right on stage as our names were called! I was overwhelmed because no one in the team expected anything! Now, we just have to wait for our scores from the hands-on competition which was held in the 28th of January. We will be awarded some time this week.

Yahoooo!!!!! I'm Out! Peace...

I'll add details when I have time. I'm studying for our long test in Religion tomorrow.

See ya then!

Something That I Should Have Posted First When I Started My Blog

Mood: Irritated
Currently listening to: Fly On A Wall - Miley Cyrus

I will have to post whatever this one is about soon because I have to sleep now. I'll just edit this when I am going to post the real content of this post.

Goodnight! I hope you read this note because you won't be able to read it anymore when I edit this in the future...

My mood is really sleepy. The mood indicated is just a reminder for that the post about my irritation on something.

That's all! See you then!!!

My School Grocery List

Mood: a little icky
Currently listening to: On the Line - Demi Lovato ft. Jonas Brothers

I just made a list of what i'm going to buy for my school supplies that are already no where to be found in my school bag.

Pad Papers:

• One whole pad (Intermediate Pad Paper)
• 1/2 crosswise pad
• 1/4 pad

Some things I put in my pencilcase:

• Black Ballpen
• Red Ballpen
• Pencil Sharpener

Book that is needed only for the this fourth quarter:

• Maganda Pa Ang Daigdig by Francisco Lazaro

We're going to the mall and buy groceries. This is an opportunity to buy what I need for school.

I just did my geometry homework... It's done... Now, I have nothing else to do for school!

That's all! See you then!

What Happened Today

Mood: sleepy
Currently listening to: On The Line - Demi Lovato ft. Jonas Brothers

Guess What? I already have the songs from Demi Lovato’s album Don’t Forget. I got the songs from the CD of my brother’s friend.

Anyway, my first two sentences are the reasons why I am posting now here in my blog.

When I got home from school, I watched television and ate my merienda. After that, I still watched TV until 6pm. Then I turned on the computer. My main reason was to post first here in my blog because everything that happened awhile at school. But what I did was to play the songs from Demi’s album. At first, I was disappointed because I could not play the songs here in my user because I just copied the songs from the CD itself but I already played the songs in the other user because that’s the user that was logged on when my brother and I tried to hear what’s in Demi’s album. In short, yesterday, I already heard these songs. I just wanted to here them again when I got home. I finally figured how to play it. I just had to drag the songs from the previous user to the folder then Add the folder to the Library in iTunes. When I finally played it successfully in my user, I edited my playlist, added the all the songs from the album, and synced them all in my iPod. Currently, my iPod shuffle contains 150 songs. So far, my favorite songs from her album are: La La Land, Get Back, Train Wreck, Party, On The Line, The Middle, Gonna Get Caught, Two Worlds Collide, and Don’t Forget. All in all there are 11 songs in her album. Before I started writing this post, I first searched for their lyrics in the net since I only got the songs not the Album itself that has their lyrics included when you buy the original CD.

About what happened this morning, it was totally fun! Here’s the schedule of what happened then:

• Homeroom Period – our seating arrangement was once again changed. I now sit at by window, on the last line. My new seatmate of the school year was my seatmate when I was in the first and second year high. I was glad to be her seatmate after a long time because for the previous year when she was my seatmate, I had high grades. She is an awesome seatmate! That’s why I always comment her on that when we have to give whatever letters to our classmates such as recoletters and etc.
  
• Chemistry Period – we almost did noting except complete our requirements. I have completed mine so there was nothing to do then during the period.
  
• Soc. Sci. Period – we already discussed the introduction to our first lesson this fourth quarter. We had an assignment before and I was able to pass my notebook with my answers inside it of course. Then a few minutes before the bell rings, our teacher gave his period for us to prepare for our play in Merchant of Venice after recess.
  
• English period (three periods coverage) – the first period was a little bit cool since I was in the part of the last act and scene of the play. I memorized my lines last night so there was no worries for me. The second period was still cool because our group thought that we would never make because our teacher said that she only borrowed one period from one subject only. Turned out that she borrowed five to ten minutes of the third period before lunch and as time goes by, she borrowed the whole period. In short, our section was able to finish the play this day after recess until before lunch. After the play, we had picture taking per Act number. Then after that we had some wacky pictures of whoever was left in the room where we performed. While we took some pictures of ourselves, the background music was playing Lovebug first, then Burnin’ Up. Then we all went down stairs to our classroom, changed our clothes, and took our lunch. For me it was the best play production experience in my life. It was the best performance I ever did in terms of speakingin front of the class and memorizing my lines. Like I said before, I would do better if the script was in English but if it was in any other language; I would probably mess up like what I did with my Talumpati in Filipino.
  
• Filipinio Period – we had nothing to do except complete our requirements. For some, it was breathtaking since they still have to recite their speeches (talumpati). For me, it was also rest time since what I only did that period was to complete a table where we have to place the title, aim and the score that we got from our formal and informal themes. And speaking about speech in tagalong, I asked my teacher if I got the lowest score, and I guess that I am a little bit of a psychic since I guessed right. It’s sad but it’s also reality that I have to face since I wasn’t prepared when I had my turn to recite my speech in front of the class. Now, I’m just hiding my feelings about being nervous of what my grade would be in my report card. I pretended to be calm but deep inside I am disappointed to myself…
  
• Advanced Algebra – All of that worries about my grade in Filipino worn off when we had activities in the period. It wasn’t even half boring. Everybody had fun!
  
• Religion – we didn’t do much. We just had our daily prayer of the Gospel of the Day then went up to a room where we watched the first parts of the movie, Freedom Writers. It was very mysterious at the beginning that makes you want to know what happened next.
  
• Dismissal – I went home early and on time. From Tuesday to Thursday, I went home late because of our play practices. Now that the play is over for section, all of us went home safe early. =)
  

Well that’s what happened today.

I just want to remind myself to write about what I feel about my first teacher as child and as a daughter.

I just want also to clarify that I don’t wear a mask when I am with my best friends and friends. I ‘m just afraid that people, who already know me, might judge me for what I think and do. Don’t get me wrong; I like people criticizing me. I just started my friendship to them being someone who is humble and average. Maybe, if ever they would figure this new web address of my blog, I would change it to: afraidtobejudged.blogspot.com. Now, I’m prepared and I don’t have to think about the next name I’ll give my address.

That’s all! Peace!

Mood: amazed to myself, angry
Currently listening to: Love Me or Hate Me - Lady Sovereign

I'm amazed to myself just now because I just helped my brother on his Math homework. It was easy! And when he checked it himself, it was right! How amazing is that?!?

Anyway, there is something I should tell. Before, the first ever web address of this blog is http://afraidtoridearollercoaster.blogspot.com/. Now, I changed it to http://whatrocksandwhatsucks.blogspot.com/ because my best friends found out about this. They weren't suppose to know. It was just last Monday when I got the news about the two of them knew about this. They are not suppose to know because I consider this as my personal diary. I don't want anyone them reading whatever I post in this blog. I won't allow anyone to do so except for my brother because we started wo have a blog at the same time. Anyone whom I don't know yet from anywhere else can totally read this. My reason is I don't want them judging me for what I write in here in my blog. They might hate for this because I only sometimes show them my true feelings about them and about other things. But they do know some of what I post here because they are part of some. Now, They probably have read everything from the start. The sad part is that they didn't even put a single comment. It was disappointing at the same time irritating. I also feel a little embarrassed becuase of some of my posts...

Anyway, I'm going to eat dinner now.

Later!