It Keeps Getting Better and Worse at the same time

Mode: sharing
Currently listening to: Don't Forget - Demi Lovato

Things are getting more and more boring for the past weeks since the review was over. I had nothing productive to do after our review. All that I did for two weeks was sit on the couch and watch television. I didn't even thought of posting here in my blog. How lame is that? And check this. I recall saying that I got used to waking up early because of our review but it only worked for a week because the week after that, I went back to the lazy old me. My plans for studying and reviewing more was scrapped out and up until now I haven't started reading yet my school books that I was suppose to read earlier so I don't have to cram reading them during the school year. Still things keep getting better.

May 1st was Ellen's 1oooth show. I watched it May 5th, its repeat telecast, since we are two episodes behind. I have been watching Ellen ever since the start of May. It airs in 2nd Avenue 8pm. I watch the repeat telecast the next day at 12 noon. It was awesome because they viewed the most hilarious episodes they ever had for the past 999 episodes. There was the guest star whose name I forgot. He was the only guest. There were alot of funny videos that were picked out from youtube, too.

Then came May 10. It was my Brother's 13th Birthday and also was Mother's Day. We had fun celebrating it on both May 9th, Saturday, and the day itself, Sunday. We went to SM North Edsa on May 9, I think and we ate at Barrio Fiesta on Mother's Day (which was also my brother's birthday). It was a double celebration. I have to say. The food there was great but the service was super duper slow. If you ordered at 12 noon flat, for example, your order will be served after 45 minutes but not all your orders are served yet. Even so, I have to admit, their Sizzling Sisig was awesome! I liked it alot even though I had to wait for it for an hour. Can you believe that? I even finished it but not by myself of course. But I ate, like, 3/4 of it. It was delectable!

May 11 was the day when I was suppose to meet my friends at Yellow Cab in Katipunan. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to come because there was no way for me to go there, literally. No one in the family wanted to accompany me in goign there. My Dad said that it was too far away. My mom told me that I can still go if I had someone to go there with but I can't think of any. My friends all have their review in Katipunan so it's easy for them to go there. To be honest, I was super sad that I wasn't able to come with because I was expected to be there and I already had a gift wrapped for my friend's sweet sixteen birthday! Now, you see how life is so unfair to me. I felt even mor sad when my friend told me that I was the only blog/group member who wasn't there. It was also the chance for me to my other friend's gift for her 15th birthday since I wasn't able to produce any durting the month of her birthdate, January.

Anyway... There was fun still yet to come that week. The next day was the third long-bonding time for me and my brother. We had our snacks at McDonald's. We talked about stuff, the usua (of course you don't know our usual talks because it's going to be between me and my brother only).

Then 13th May was an ordinary boring day. What's awesome in that day was when it was comfirmed that my mom and dad decided to take the day off the next day, 14th may. It was because someone has to get me enrolled at school or I won't be able to graduate high school. It was funny because the other parent thought that the other was going to do it instead.

The next day was the school's enrollment day, May 14. I wasn't able to come with my mom who decided to enroll all by herself. So my dad stayed at home with me and my brother and had a bonding moment with the his children at home. Things weren't boring that day when mom got home with our school supplies and my books. (NOTE: It has been a tradition that my mom buys my brother's school supplies in my school because his school sucks and lacks school supplies.) My mom had the time to take a half day at work so she went to her office after eating lunch together as one whole family. When she left, dad got lazy and didn't go to his work anymore. He had his nap then. My brother went in the Internet Cafe in the neighborhood to play DoTA. And I didn't just sit there and watch television. Instead someone saved me from boredom that time. Itwas my old buddy and still best friend.

We had a chat about our Electives this coming school year. Her Elective is all about computer. my elective is all about writing. WE talked on the phone. It took us 99 minutes talking which annoyed my father a little since he was taking nap on the couch near the big couch where I sat and talked to my friend. Even though we ALWAYS take different paths in life, our friendship is as strong as the hardest candy there is; no matter how strong your teeth are, they will never break our candy. Only the saliva of death can melt us down together... Anyway... I said those stuff because I am very impressed with our friendship. We've been friends since the 3rd grade, though we've been classmates since 1st grade. It's a long story... but I promise to tell the story about my experience with friendship some other time. BUt now some more updates on what I have been doing for weeks...

After my dad had a nap that day, my brother and I planned to watch Ned's Declassified School Survival after i talked on the phone and my brother came back home the cafe. But my father woke up and he wanted, I guess, to bond with his two children. So we played cards. That was 4pm to 6pm. After two hours of playing cards, I watched American Idol. I have been psyched up on what's going on in that show ever since I watched the top 7. I've been cheering for Allison but she went home already so I went to focus on Danny. But then he went home last week. Now my vote is on Kris. I like him more than Adam, that's for sure.

The next day, May 15, was nothing but a normal day. There's another series that is added on our list of must-watch-shows/series. The series is an anime. It's very interesting, to be honest. It's called Yu Yu Hakusho or as we like to call it here in the Philippines, Ghost Fighter. It started airing last two weeks ago, I think.

Then this Saturday, May 16, came. It's y grandmother's birthday. Though, she didn't tell us her exact age, I willl ask my dad about it. Today is Monday, May18. Last Saturday was the time when I was supposed to get my hair rebonded in the mall but there wasn't anough time to do it so my brother and I went to the internet cafe at the mall and do whatever we want while mom went to buy groceries. I started writing this post at that Saturday but mom finished early so I wasn't able to finish. So instead of stopping it here on what happened last Saturday, I will continue it until what has happened today.

Sunday, May 17, was the moment of truth. I had to decide if I will push through the process of straightening my hair and make look better and look easier to handle for my mom. I agreed for the reasons that I don't have to arguw with my mom, and i wanted it to get over with already. So it happened for six hours. from 2pm to 8pm. IT was a success and I feel and realize that this is the WORST hairdo i ever had!

Now, i must not wet my straight hair. For if I do, I would've wasted my time sitting inside the parlor letting strange people touch and mess up my hair for my mother. I'm just saying that since I went to the process already, at least have to do my job in maintaining it. Or else, my mom would notice that I don't like it then it's likely that she will surely get mad at me. (there are the words likely ad surely... that means it's either of the two and i know that it's wrong grammar...) In short, I took a bath without lettingmy hair get wet. How hard is that. I'm going back to the parlor this coming Saturday. I want to cut my hair short so I can enjoy it a little. That means bathing without lettin gmy hair get wet for one week starting today.

That's not the only thing etraordinary today. Will you believe me when I say that I just reviewed half of Biology today? Well, yes I did. I resisted the television and the computer this time. It helped me save myself from boredom.

So that's about it. i just wantto remind myself about translating something in english which written by me originally in tagalog. IT's pretty awesome. I;m going to tell story about it too. I also want to post about my friend whom, if she were to read my blog, would not want to be friends with me anymore. It's all about the friend who didn't want to tell me her secret until we had a heart-to-heart talk last March. She's having a hard time now and I want to share things in this blog about me and her. It's going to be a little dramatic and emotional since we've been through a lot more than you think. Her, being my classmate last school year helped me know her more. And I think it's about time anyway that you understand her the way I understood her. I am just waiting for her to open things up with me. When she is ready to tell me everything, I'll be sharing a little with you. That is if I remember sharing it to you...

Anyway... things are getting better as time goes by for me and my friends. BUt it gets worse for myself and my hair and the way I handle my time. I'm not really good at self-discipline but I'm trying control myself one step at a time.

So I hope to post about the things I promise to post about. The onlyh problem I have is time. It's too short. and the world is so unfair. We have a computer at home but its internet speed is slow. We can't use my dad's celphone which has high speed because he complains about how high his bill is.

Anyway... I hope things get better for me more than worse...

It Has Been A LONG Time...

Mode: I'm back!
Currently listening to: My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson

I'm only posting now because this is the only time I've got when my hands are tingling to do something like typing.

Here's what happened for the past days and weeks of April...

First Week - Not much had happened except for eating soft diet for my new lower braces. I'm not allowed to eat anything crispy or hard-to-chew foods.

Second Week - It was very challenging 'cause there were two none working days at that week. I had to compete for the remote control.

Third Week - My birthday was a success, though it was simple and we celebrated it at home. It's my 16th birthday so there were many foods. there was homemade sandstorm, baked macaroni, spaghetti, and double dutch cake from Goldilock's. It wasn't very extravagant but there were a lot of foods which I like and love the most! My birthday, April 14, was supposed to be the start of the reviews for entrance exams at school. It was moved to April 15, birthday of my most favorite seatmate ever!

The first day of review was awesome! The teachers were great and very impressive. I just hope the teacher in math who I fear (he's a guy) won't be my teacher in Trigonometry next school year! The teacher in Physics was somehow boring. But, as time goes by, she can pull some jokes! I hope she'll be our class' teacher next year because it has been said that she is better than the other Physics teacher. The English teacher is awesome! There was never a dull moment except when she discusses, which is something she does very briefly. During discussion, she makes a joke. They're really funny!

Then I believe it was a Sunday when my best and I, along with another friends of ours, went to SM Sta. Mesa to watch a movie. And that very fortunate movie would be... "17 Again", starring the one and only, Zac Efron!!! The movie had a sense of humor, lessons to learn, and a lot of Zac Efron!!! It was amazingly awesome, dude!!! You should try watching it if you haven't seen it!

Fourth Week - The last week of review for summer vacation. We still have Saturday Classes for the next school year for us to refresh our minds of what we have already learned in the review. The last day was not really that memorable, so was the second to the last day. Things weren't that exciting anymore and weren't that fun anymore as well. I got bored. The only constant was that I was late from first day to last day! How cool is that?! But I know that I can't do that during regular classes at school...

Fifth Week - In general, I kinda trained myself last Monday, April 27, to wake up as early as 8am. It was because of the 2-week review. I had to wake up at 6am but still managed to be tardy the whole review.

Anyway, since I had no more reviews, I continue enjoying my summer. I already wrote another poem about boredom. And I learned how to tune my guitar. I just had to go to this site, http://www.chordbook.com/ to guide me in tuning my guitar and many more.

I also developed an interest in the dictionary. I know words that I never thought of encountering in my entire life.

I also went back to my piano. I use it every night to pump me up and make me feel tired so I can go to sleep. You see, my piano has this cool feature that allows itself to play any beat or rhythm that I want. With that beat, I can sing the songs that I already know. Also, I discovered the piano keys I have to press for me to play the background music in Jeopardy. I can also play it in the guitar so every time I watch Jeopardy, 7pm on Velvet, I play the theme on my guitar.

And now that I stay home again, my brother and I cook our breakfast, and snacks. And since I have no plans for this week, I scheduled a check-up with my dentist yesterday and today at 2pm. The dentist pulled some teeth together this time. And it hurt the most yesterday after I left the dentist. Of course, the first thing that I ate after I left the dentist is ICE CREAM to cheer up my gums from the pain that they experienced. But I didn't go home empty handed that day, I got a souvenir from the dentist. She gave me my very own toothbrush and toothpaste! The problem is that i forgot to get it from her yesterday. And I forgot it again today. I will have to get it from her on the next month we meet.

It was cool 'cause that day, yesterday, was also my bonding time with my brother. We ate at McDonald's. We were there for 1 and 1/4 hours. I only ordered plain sundae without anything and regular fries. My brother ordered Chicken Fillet w/ rice and drinks. Then he ordered sundae with chocolate on it.

That was the second long-bonding time we had. The first was last Saturday, the last day of our review. My brother and I had to come with our mother to Trinoma. That was the meeting place of my mom's high school barkada. My brother and I didn't want to tag along them so we explored Trinoma from the second floor to the fourth floor then we went to the ground floor. It was from 3:30pm to 7pm. But before we had a walk around the mall, we ate burritos and nachos in Taco Bell while I narrated 17Again to him because he hasn't seen it yet. We didn't watch a movie that time because all cinemas were already starting the film. We had to wait till 4pm. We didn't want to sit down and watch a movie to kill 2 and 1/2 hours, so we agreed on taking a tour around the mall! =)

Now you know what happened to me this month. This is the first and last post for this month, April since this is the last day of this month. Tomorrow will be the first day of May. 10 days from now is my brother's 13th birthday! But I don't know yet what to give him!!! (maybe he doesn't need one)...

Brownout

Mode: Idle
Currently listening to: What Time Is It? - HSM2OST

I can only say one thing
It’s so freaking hot!
I can only feel one thing
I’m so freaking hot!

If you ask me what I want
Cold air is necessary
If you ask me what I need
Cold air is a necessity

Now you know what I have to say
Now you know how I feel
And you know what I want
And you know what I need

So please just give me
Some really cold air
‘Cause it is brownout
And I’m freaking out!

If you still don’t get it
Then try turning off your fans
For about ten minutes or more
Then you’ll finally understand

When the sun is shining brightly
Or when the moon is the only light you can see
And the lights and fans at home are turned off
And you get really sweaty without doing anything

This can only mean one thing…
It’s BROWNOUT!
Yeah it is!
Just check it out!

Because it’s brownout
Believe it or not
I know it’s hot.
For crying out loud!

(Note: These are potential lyrics of a new song. All there's left is the music and a little edit will do.)

It's an Awesome Life!

Mode: Happy
Currently listening to: Train Wreck - Demi Lovato

Early at night I lie to bed
And rise like an early bird to eat my bread.
I sleep and wake up with no hesitations.
With 8 hours of sleep, I have no irritations.

Everyday, there are foods that I need to eat.
They are vegetables, carbohydrates, and meat.
With these kind if foods, I’ll have a balanced diet.
When I eat them, my stomach will have to keep quiet.

It’s okay to help people,
Especially in times of their troubles.
But we must not over do it
So they can learn themselves how to solve it.

God loves us unconditionally.
Therefore, we must pay him back equally
By loving God forever and always,
And our neighbors as we love ourselves.

Something I Wrote About Our Class Retreat

Mode: Reminiscing
Currently listening to: Full Circle - Miley Cyrus

I. Personal Faith Experience

I was excited to go to the retreat to the point that I had a little leftover of my lunch at school. When we were in the bus and asked to watch the documentary, I was bored so I watched only the first parts and the last parts. In between, I was either talking to my classmates or looking outside the window. When we got to the place, I was mostly excited to see our Dorm (A). It wasn't exactly what I thought it looked like but I thanked God that I was in that dorm and not anywhere else.

Our class had a recollection in a glass room. It was really awesome. Our first activity was to imitate an animal as a group. Our group chose to be a penguin. Then we had our merienda. We had toron and other snacks from us. It was satisfying. Then we started with our real activity. We got our malong and our coloring materials with the drawing book. We read stories through the PowerPoint. During the reading of the stories, I came to appreciate the galaxies, the sun, the planets, the moons and stars more than I did before since it was explained to us how God created them. We did two stories then we had dinner. After dinner, we gazed at the stars. We were divided in groups. In the group that I was in, we talked about things. After the star gazing, we did the third story and gave a star and a rose to anyone who we wanted to give it. In my part, I have to say that I was pretty much surprised to those who gave their star and rose to me. I didn’t expect any from them. I was only expecting to receive from Belay since we exchanged stars and roses. Then we had our midnight snack. I didn't eat because I was full already from dinner. The most unforgettable story that I heard was "The Four Candles". It was amazing on how it was animated. Then we went to our dorms and slept. We didn't actually sleep at once since we had to pray the rosary first. After we prayed the rosary, I tried to sleep already because if don't sleep at least seven hours, I'll get sick the next day. We finished the rosary at 12am. I wasn't able to sleep well since some of my classmates were still talking and chatting. I didn't sleep in straight hours because of the noise. I wake up at 5am then after 5 minutes, I took a bath. It took me about 15 to 20 minutes to take a bath since I was still sleepy. The cold water gave me little energy to get the day started. I was able to walk around with my friends and took a couple of pictures. Then we had breakfast. Considering that I was still really sleepy that morning, I only ate about five spoonfuls of rice with eggs. I didn't finish my champorado because I didn't feel like eating it. I wasn't able to make milo because I felt lazy to make one. Then we head back to the glass room and listened to the fourth and final story. Then we made our last and biggest mandala. During the story telling, I was sleepy to the point that I closed my eyes and slept for minutes. I wasn't able to understand the story much. I made an extra mandala so I can make a star when I put all my mandalas together. It was amazing. I finished it early. Then we had recess. We had kutsinta. I didn't finish my last piece of kutsinta because I accompanied Mrs. Garcia to by food souvenir. Then we went back inside the glass room and had our last activity: the Mass. I didn't have much energy to sing and respond. To be honest, I took a sleep during the Homily. I prayed to God after the mass and said sorry for not participating in the Mass.

When everything was over, we went outside to relax. We took some wonderful pictures with our classmates while we were outside. I had attempts in injecting my Flash drive in the laptop that was left on the table on the corner and play some music since my friends and I were bored since we had nothing else to do but to wait for the signal to go in the bus. My conscience got into me and decided to do other things for fun. When we got in the bus, the first thing that I did was to go to sleep. So I did until we reached STC gate 2. As soon as we got there I already took a tricycle and went home so I can go to sleep in a place more comfortable.

II. Insights

The documentary about the animals was boring. The place was awesome and definitely all about nature since there were plants all over. The stories were good to reflect on. It wasn't too hot or too cold. I reflected much to the stories and was able to see that God is indeed powerful. He created all things well and saw that it was good especially the human beings. Based on my experience, I didn't lose hope in having a great time even though I was sleepy in the end. About the Four Candles, I realized through the story that the world can lose love, peace, and faith but should always have hope left in them. There is always hope in being a star to everyone. In the stories, I came to appreciate other God's creations that are located far away from the Earth.

Something I Wrote in One of My Reflections

Mode: Reminiscing
Currently listening to: Burnin' Up - Jonas Brothers

GOD, SPOTTED IN MY LIFE!!!
God has been with me until right now, as I am writing, through my parents. They tell me to be a good girl all the time by advising me not to say bad words and to finish all my homework now so I will free time tomorrow, Tuesday. I know that God is here today through my friends who put me on the right track just like my parents.

God can be anything and anybody in my daily life which and who guides me through life. He could be my parents who give and tell what's best for me. He could be my brother who always keeps me company when mom and dad are at work. He could be one of my best friends who makes me laugh and happy. He could be one of my best friends who tell me to be myself all the time and to control myself just in case I get talkative.

God can be some things and persons that make my day wonderful. He could be my alarm clock which wakes me up in the morning. He could be the hot water that I put into my Milo every morning to remind me to straighten up and get ready for school. He could be my tricycle driver who drives me to and from school so I can be safe. He could be the traffic enforcer who makes sure that I cross the street safely. He could be my one of my classmates who greets me in the morning so I start the day happily. He could be the warning bell at school which reminds everyone that it's almost recess, lunch, or dismissal; or it's time to line up and get ready for the next subject. He could be one of my teachers who teach me on how to become a good follower of Jesus. He could be the cockroach inside our classroom which reminds us to clean our room because it is already dirty. He could be the key of our room which will guard our room so no one can steal stuff from us while we are gone.

God can be in any form of safety and healthy gear. He could be Mrs. Sacdalan who reminds us to discipline ourselves so we get out of trouble. He could be the manongs and manangs who serve us food in the cafeteria and make sure that what we eat is healthy and safe. He could be the water in my water jug which refreshes me after P.E. classes, after I eat recess and lunch, and when I am just plane thirsty. He could be the food I eat everyday which energizes me to do activities.

God can be any of my school materials that help me in school works. He could be my pen which I use to write creative essays, poems, themes, and notes. He could be my reviewer or my notes which help me prepare for tomorrow's tests. He could be my school books which helps me in studying the lessons at school. He could be my guardian angel who secretly tells me the answers to the questions in the exams and quizzes so won't have the reason to cheat.

God could be anything that comforts me. He could be the trees which shades us from the too much warmness of the sun. He could be my umbrella which protects me from the rain. He could be my jacket which makes me warm when I am cold. He could be the electric fan which cools me down when I am burning up in sweat. He could be any of the benches which I sit on so I can rest my feet when I am tired. He could be my wallet which is the place where I put my money in and something that I bring with me so it would be safe. He could be my house where I eat, clean, and sleep with my family. He could be one of the people or persons who give me criticisms and tells me that I still have things to change so I can be a better person. He could be the sun after the rain which symbolizes that there is hope in everything.

God can be anything that makes me enjoy life. He could be one of the members of my favorite boy band who entertains me and relaxes me. He could be the one of the reporters and writers of the newspaper who keeps me updated in what's happening around me. God remains present in my life as I go through life everyday. I believe that He is with me all the time even though I don't see Him.

After all the quizzes...

Mode: lazy
Currently listening to: Forever and Always - Taylor Swift

The time when the last long test of the day was over (TLE), I felt like a big pile of things on my shoulders fell down the fire burning on the floor all throughout the day!

We didn't have a quiz in Chemistry. It was cancelled. The TLE long test was hard besause i didn't study that well yesterday.

Anyway, I'm just happy that this day is over. Tomorrow will be the continuation of our play in Filipino. But I'm still the narrator. So. I'm just chillaxing now. Playing music in the computer, posting here in my blog, maybe watching tv later.

That's all!

Today at School for Three Hours after Dismissal (and other things too!)

Mood: Tired
Currently listening to: Breathe - Taylor Swift

Today is our school's Personnel's Day! This is the day when we give gifts and thoughtful cards/letters to our teachers and apologize the things that made them sad and mad at our class. This is also the time when we get to know our teachers better. This is the day when the teachers celebrate and have a little rest from work by going home early!

We usually go home at 3:10pm from school during Fridays. Today, we go home at 2:25pm! Unfortunately for almost all the Juniors (including me), they have to stay until 5:00pm-5:30pm to practice for our current play: Maganda Pa Ang Daigdig. It is really pain because instead of resting at home in an early time or do whatever some of us want to do, we have stay in school and do some effort to at least perfect our group presentation.

So our group went home at 5:30pm. For some, the time alloted for practice (2:25pm-5:30pm) wasn't enough. For me, it was more than enough to practice at least 5 scenes given that the time was long. I didn't do much during the pracrice because I was just the narrator and kinda director (not really). So I just waited for my turn to speak. My lines are really short and since I am the narrator, I didn't need to memorize my lines.

So what exactly did I do at school for the whole 3 hours and 5 minutes? From 2:25pm-3:30pm, three of my group members and I went to National Bookstore to buy materials to make our backdrop/background. On the road, we stopped by McDonald's. The three of us bought sandae cone and the other one bought regular fries and coke float. We took a lot of time in the bookstore because we spent time in looking for the notebook. I didn't come along for the materials needed, I came along because I was suppose to buy a Math Notebook since I only have 3 pages left in my other one. We didn't find one so we left with the materials needed only. Then we went back to school.

When we got to where our other groupmates were, we sat on the grass and waited for someone to boss us around and say what we have to do. One group member told us to paint the drawing that was written in pencil. So we did. The only problem was we weren't able to do it the way she wanted it to look like. So she was freaking out because it was ugly for her. So we did something else like practice our lines. Since I didn't need to memorize my lines, I just practiced the way I should deliver them. But that was a little easy so I finished a little earlier. So what I did was to join the other two directors of the group and direct a little. Then I read my lines when it was may turn. Then I watched them act. After that, some of my other classmates who brought their camera took pictures with me. For the rest of the time, that was what I was doing. When it was 5:00pm, I left the group and went home. And that's how practice went. Some painted the whole time, some were acting and eating.

A little update on my school life, she cried again and said that she was stressed in general. I asked her for details but she won't tell. She also told me that she is sad. Then I replied and said that I am feel sadder than her ever since... then I didn't continue and decided not to tell her. Then during dismissal when we wen to NBS, she asked me again why was I sad and ever since when. I didn't tell her still. To be honest, I was really sadder than her but I was not sure when it began so I just said that it's a secret why and when i was sadder than her. In short I kinda played her mind into figuring out why and when. Now, too, when our class go to one venue to the other, I go there by inserting myself somewhere in the middle of the line with other classmates. It was awkward to walk, I have to admit, when you are walking somewhere where you do not know anyone or are not close to anyone. So I tried to talk to the person in front and at the back of me when I insert myself. It was changelling but it is an opportunity to talk to every person in the class. =)

I'm feeling a little better since I already told her the fact that she doesn't tell me the reasons why she cries, or why is she sad. I also told her what I experience when she is with her ka-chika buddies. Now, I am paranoid to her when she cries. When she cries, I try my best to ignore her and to actually not comfort her since I don't connect to her anymore. Maybe I connect to her a little but I guess the line between us is breaking up. I'm afraid that next school year I might not be as close to her as I used to before. I have this gut feeling that so much will happen to her with her ka-chicka buddies that they won't tell me and they'll laugh about something I don't know. Or maybe they'll tell among themselves about their summer experience and I won't be able to connect.

Recently, when I hanged out with another new friend who is a Social Studies Nerd, we have been talking about graduation and leaving the school for good. She too has some issues like mine. In fact, her best friend is one of my friend's ka-chicka buddy. So we face the school world, this school year, a little similarly. It's good to have her as a friend in the class. I opened up to her last week wednesday during our T.L.E. when my friend started crying and the only persons whe tells her story to is her ka-chicka buddy/ies. I felt really bad and ignored at that time that's why I decided to release what I felt. The feeling was torturing me every time I experienced it. It's a good thing that I told it to the right person or else, if she wasn't the right one, she could've told my friend already. If my friend knew about it, then it would just be fine because I know that we're friends and if gets mad, I wouldn't care more.

That's all. This has been another heart-to-heart session about me. I have to go to sleep now! Tomorrow will be a special day for my mom since tomorrow is Valentine's Day and at the same time, her birthday, too! She told me not to buy her a flower anymore so I bought secretly. I am currently keeping the white rose I bought her, before I went home inside my bag, placed in a plastic with water so it won't wither. Tomorow is also the Parent Consultation on Career Decision-Making. Everyone is expected to be there at 7:30am. We are planning to go there at 8am. I'll be going with my mother since my dad has to go with my brother in his school's Family Day.

That's all! I really have to sleep now! Goodnight! =)

It's The Time of My LIFE!!! - Continuation

Mood: guilty
Currently listening to: The Best Day - Taylor Swift

I almost forgot... last week, Friday, we got the certificates from the quiz bee. Our team were second place in the hands-on part of the quiz bee!!! Our team also grabbed third place in the overall thing. When our names were said in front of the whole High School Department, I attempted to jump up and down again just like last time. But what made me stop was the principal and directress presence who were the once who gave the certificates.

One thing that gave me my attention that time while holding the cheap certificates of our school was my name written in the wrong spelling!!! It spelled - Darryl - which was WRONG!!! so when the better math teacher in the school proctored us (he was the other geometry/trigonometry/algebra/facilitator of the mathletes), I complained (just a little bit). He said he'll take it back and change the spelling of my name. What a dude. He was awesome too! The class had fun with him during the geometry period. I wish he'll be the class' trigo teacher next school year...

I feel guilty because I haven't started anything yet!

Gotta go na!

They just need to come out...

Mood: Fresh feeling
Currently listening to: Love Story - Taylor Swift

We had our practical exam in P.E. a while ago. My team got the third place in overall in our class. And I wasn't the reason for that. I didn't contribute anything to the team. I stood there waiting for the ball to touch the ground or get hit by one of my team members. I served the ball and wished it fell in the court not out. I felt useless. But it was fine.

I feel fresh now because I took a bath to get rid of all the sweat. I didn't do much but the court was warm.

About the post before this, I still like and am friends with the friend I talked about. I just wanted to release my inner thoughts of what is happening to me during school hours.

I still have to study for our Chemistry Long Test tomorrow, and do a reflection for my seatmate. I am suppose to include in my to-do list the advanced homework in Advanced Algebra. I felt lazy in bringing home the thickest book so I don't have it now and I plan to do it tomorrow.

Tomorrow, I will go home at 5:30 pm because we have practice for the play in Filipino about the novel "Maganda Pa Ang Daigdig". I'm the narrator/director (although I don't act like a director).

I'm listening to Taylor Swift's album: Fearless. My Jonas Brothers/Miley Cyrus/Demi Lovato/Selena Gomez/Taylor Swift/Disney Channel buddy burnt a copy of the Album for me. She is so cool. I'll link her blog to mine when I have the time to link the blogs I wanted to link to.

Anyway, I'm all alone at home right now. My brother attended the procession of the Our Lady of Lourdes. I'm enjoying my Home-alone experience today so bye for now!

Lots of things to do so little time...

IT'S NOT FAIR!!!

Mood: I feel so pist off!!!
Currently listening to: This Is Me - Demi Lovato

A little thing that anyone should know about me is that I hate secrets especially when they are kept away from me. People with secrets are, in my opinion, insecure. If anyone would know about there secret, they fear that people might not treat them right. But one thing they don't know is that they are supported at all times by those people who care about them.

You see, the thing is, what really hurts is when your friend whom you know more than anyone in a group of new faces, has an experience or story that she is not telling you but is telling to othrs whom she has known for months only. You ask her, "what is it all about" and all she says is "you'll kick my ass if you knew" whatever that is. Because of this, instead both of you are bonded together as friends, you get more and more separated from her since you don't know what's happening in her life and about her. How the heck will you know her better if she doesn't update you when you ask for an update? The part which makes you wish you weren't her frind is when you figure that she is telling her update to another person other you, who asked first.

Everytime the two of you walk together to go to another venue where the class will be held, a classmate approaches and asks if she can borrow your friend for a moment and talk to her about secrets you shouldn't hear that's why they have to be away from you. This leaves you to yourself alone in the corridor going to where the class is suppose to go. If you see a person who you can walk with, other than your friend who is "borrowed away from you", you yourself will find a reason for walking with her so she doesn't feel being used by you since you have no one to walk with.

Another reason why you wish you weren't her friend is because during free period when the teacher is late, you find yourself sitting with her but not talking to her which is the main reason why you seated beside her in the first place. Then you feel like moving a seat away from her because you don't want to see her and the person, who she is talking to, whisper or mouthing what they have to say to each other since it is a secret. Everytime a person talks to her, you have to back off a little so you won't hear what they are talking about. You just look away when they laugh about something you don't even know about.

Then she tells one secret. She also tells you not to tell anyone. You know that she'll get mad when you tell anyone so you keep it a secret. Then you find yourself in a situation where she accidentally blurts it out and tells to the people who heard to not to tell anyone about it. Then one of the people who heard it spreads it out and she doesn't even get mad at that person. Then you think about that situation where you think that what if you were the one who told the secret. You'll think and guess that she won't talk to you for a day and that she won't tell you any more secrets.

And to think that she is suppose to do all of these things with you and that she should be considering you more since both of you had a foundation to your friendship and all that's left is to build it up more so it won't break down into pieces. You don't want your hardwork into building your friendship be put into waste just like that. She doesn't mean to do these things with others instead of you. But the process you are going through and the thoughts that go into your head are holes that can bring down such friendship.

She is friends of course with those she shares secrets with. They very fortunate to know a lot about my friend more than I know her. That's why, because of this realization in life, I have decided to tell my bestfriend about the website of this blog. My bestfriend can judge me in any way she wants. She is my best friend after all. She understands me that's why I have a lot of fun when I'm with her. There is never a boring moment with her. True, there are times when the two of us are out of things to say to each other but being with her makes me happy already. I hpe she feels and thinks the same way. If not, it's fine me too! We don't have secrets from each other. That's why I felt unfair to her because she tells and allows me to visit and read about whatever she writes in her blog and I don't want her to know whatever I post in my blog and won't even tell her mine when I changed the web address.

On Monday, I am ready to tell her my web address and let her read everything in this blog. I'll just tell her not to tell anyone. It will be our own little secret, just the two of us. This a simple kind of revenge that I can think of. It's a bad revenge but it's the one thing I got that my other friend doesn't know about.

What sucks and rocks is that next school year, we will surely make another term paper about a different novel. In our school, we do the term paper as a pair. My partner is my friend who seems to be the topic of this post. Next school year, she surely won't be my partner because she already made arrangements with another classmate. Now, I am forced to pair myself with a classmate who I have been sitting beside ever since my first year in High School. She is the only one I got who is serious yet fun to be with too. It sucks because my friend who the topic is the best in the class and that's something that everyone in the class has to admit. If don't work with her, then I guess my term paper next school year won't be as good as what the two of us are doing now. What rocks is that she doesn't have to boss me around next school year in doing the term paper since she won't be my partner anymore.

It's not fair because I should be knowing her better and getting close to her since I am her friend for three or four years.

Now you know how I am and what I go through during class hours. I only get to hang out with my bestfriend and leave my friend during recess and lunch time.

Writing all fo these things that are trapped and now set free in my head makes me feel a lot better. I feel the best if my best friend would read this post.

So chow for now!

I'll sign in to Yahoo! Messenger to give her an instant message containing the web address of this blog of mine. Some of these are things I already told her.

Bandfest!!!

Mood: happy
Currently listening to:We Rock - Camp Rock

Yesterday was a very rock n' roll night! WE had our bandfest at our school. I went to there with my friend and bestfriend and another friend. I totally had fun with them! There were bands from the school itself and mands outside the school. The best part was when Chicosci played their music! It was awesome! They did medley songs. They sang, other than their songs, That's What You Get, I Kissed A Girl, Hot N' Cold, and Single Ladies. Although I wasn't a fan, I enjoyed because everyone was jumping, screaming, and singing really loud!!! I screamed, too!

There was this not so famous band that also played last night. The band's name was Hansom (I'm not sure of the spelling). The band was compose of three brothers. The lead singer/guitar was a mixture of Nick and Joe Jonas! That's why I had a crush on him that night.

I only ate a barbeque and a jumbo hotdog (Purefoods, of course). The barbeque was made by the faculty of the school. A lot of people bought more barbeque than the siomai they also sold. I only had water. This was the only bandfest where I was able to enjoy and have fun but ate only few since I spent most of the time in the court where the bands and dancers performed (foods and drinks were not allowed in). Everyone did a great job, by the way especially the band that sang Burnin' Up by JB. After that and another song that they sang, my brother and I went home (he went with me then we splitted up). My brother was with his friends from his school. HE also had fun.

So went to the bandfest at 6pm and left at 10pm. That's a long time to have fun for a night!

I had a great night! I slept at 10:30pm and woke at 10:45am awhile ago.

That's all about last night. The next posts will be about thoughts that were supposed to be posted days, weeks, and months ago. This is the only time I have to post them.

Something That I Should Have Posted First When I Started My Blog

Mood: Irritated
Currently listening to: Fly On A Wall - Miley Cyrus

I will have to post whatever this one is about soon because I have to sleep now. I'll just edit this when I am going to post the real content of this post.

Goodnight! I hope you read this note because you won't be able to read it anymore when I edit this in the future...

My mood is really sleepy. The mood indicated is just a reminder for that the post about my irritation on something.

That's all! See you then!!!

What Happened Today

Mood: sleepy
Currently listening to: On The Line - Demi Lovato ft. Jonas Brothers

Guess What? I already have the songs from Demi Lovato’s album Don’t Forget. I got the songs from the CD of my brother’s friend.

Anyway, my first two sentences are the reasons why I am posting now here in my blog.

When I got home from school, I watched television and ate my merienda. After that, I still watched TV until 6pm. Then I turned on the computer. My main reason was to post first here in my blog because everything that happened awhile at school. But what I did was to play the songs from Demi’s album. At first, I was disappointed because I could not play the songs here in my user because I just copied the songs from the CD itself but I already played the songs in the other user because that’s the user that was logged on when my brother and I tried to hear what’s in Demi’s album. In short, yesterday, I already heard these songs. I just wanted to here them again when I got home. I finally figured how to play it. I just had to drag the songs from the previous user to the folder then Add the folder to the Library in iTunes. When I finally played it successfully in my user, I edited my playlist, added the all the songs from the album, and synced them all in my iPod. Currently, my iPod shuffle contains 150 songs. So far, my favorite songs from her album are: La La Land, Get Back, Train Wreck, Party, On The Line, The Middle, Gonna Get Caught, Two Worlds Collide, and Don’t Forget. All in all there are 11 songs in her album. Before I started writing this post, I first searched for their lyrics in the net since I only got the songs not the Album itself that has their lyrics included when you buy the original CD.

About what happened this morning, it was totally fun! Here’s the schedule of what happened then:

• Homeroom Period – our seating arrangement was once again changed. I now sit at by window, on the last line. My new seatmate of the school year was my seatmate when I was in the first and second year high. I was glad to be her seatmate after a long time because for the previous year when she was my seatmate, I had high grades. She is an awesome seatmate! That’s why I always comment her on that when we have to give whatever letters to our classmates such as recoletters and etc.
  
• Chemistry Period – we almost did noting except complete our requirements. I have completed mine so there was nothing to do then during the period.
  
• Soc. Sci. Period – we already discussed the introduction to our first lesson this fourth quarter. We had an assignment before and I was able to pass my notebook with my answers inside it of course. Then a few minutes before the bell rings, our teacher gave his period for us to prepare for our play in Merchant of Venice after recess.
  
• English period (three periods coverage) – the first period was a little bit cool since I was in the part of the last act and scene of the play. I memorized my lines last night so there was no worries for me. The second period was still cool because our group thought that we would never make because our teacher said that she only borrowed one period from one subject only. Turned out that she borrowed five to ten minutes of the third period before lunch and as time goes by, she borrowed the whole period. In short, our section was able to finish the play this day after recess until before lunch. After the play, we had picture taking per Act number. Then after that we had some wacky pictures of whoever was left in the room where we performed. While we took some pictures of ourselves, the background music was playing Lovebug first, then Burnin’ Up. Then we all went down stairs to our classroom, changed our clothes, and took our lunch. For me it was the best play production experience in my life. It was the best performance I ever did in terms of speakingin front of the class and memorizing my lines. Like I said before, I would do better if the script was in English but if it was in any other language; I would probably mess up like what I did with my Talumpati in Filipino.
  
• Filipinio Period – we had nothing to do except complete our requirements. For some, it was breathtaking since they still have to recite their speeches (talumpati). For me, it was also rest time since what I only did that period was to complete a table where we have to place the title, aim and the score that we got from our formal and informal themes. And speaking about speech in tagalong, I asked my teacher if I got the lowest score, and I guess that I am a little bit of a psychic since I guessed right. It’s sad but it’s also reality that I have to face since I wasn’t prepared when I had my turn to recite my speech in front of the class. Now, I’m just hiding my feelings about being nervous of what my grade would be in my report card. I pretended to be calm but deep inside I am disappointed to myself…
  
• Advanced Algebra – All of that worries about my grade in Filipino worn off when we had activities in the period. It wasn’t even half boring. Everybody had fun!
  
• Religion – we didn’t do much. We just had our daily prayer of the Gospel of the Day then went up to a room where we watched the first parts of the movie, Freedom Writers. It was very mysterious at the beginning that makes you want to know what happened next.
  
• Dismissal – I went home early and on time. From Tuesday to Thursday, I went home late because of our play practices. Now that the play is over for section, all of us went home safe early. =)
  

Well that’s what happened today.

I just want to remind myself to write about what I feel about my first teacher as child and as a daughter.

I just want also to clarify that I don’t wear a mask when I am with my best friends and friends. I ‘m just afraid that people, who already know me, might judge me for what I think and do. Don’t get me wrong; I like people criticizing me. I just started my friendship to them being someone who is humble and average. Maybe, if ever they would figure this new web address of my blog, I would change it to: afraidtobejudged.blogspot.com. Now, I’m prepared and I don’t have to think about the next name I’ll give my address.

That’s all! Peace!

Mood: amazed to myself, angry
Currently listening to: Love Me or Hate Me - Lady Sovereign

I'm amazed to myself just now because I just helped my brother on his Math homework. It was easy! And when he checked it himself, it was right! How amazing is that?!?

Anyway, there is something I should tell. Before, the first ever web address of this blog is http://afraidtoridearollercoaster.blogspot.com/. Now, I changed it to http://whatrocksandwhatsucks.blogspot.com/ because my best friends found out about this. They weren't suppose to know. It was just last Monday when I got the news about the two of them knew about this. They are not suppose to know because I consider this as my personal diary. I don't want anyone them reading whatever I post in this blog. I won't allow anyone to do so except for my brother because we started wo have a blog at the same time. Anyone whom I don't know yet from anywhere else can totally read this. My reason is I don't want them judging me for what I write in here in my blog. They might hate for this because I only sometimes show them my true feelings about them and about other things. But they do know some of what I post here because they are part of some. Now, They probably have read everything from the start. The sad part is that they didn't even put a single comment. It was disappointing at the same time irritating. I also feel a little embarrassed becuase of some of my posts...

Anyway, I'm going to eat dinner now.

Later!

Intramurals

Mood: cool...
Currently listening to: Fly On The Wall - Miley Cyrus

Let me tell you about what happened to our school intramurals. This is the last day of our intrams and I sure do miss it. The three-do-nothing days were awesome and i'm gonn atell you why...

Monday, Jan. 5 - Our first day back to school from our Christmas and New Year vacation

Everyone at school was burning up to win the sport that they are supposed to play. I was in the game of Tag of War. Since that's my game, we didn't do much. we had to wait for our team's turn to play; otherwise we wandered around the high school campus. While we wait for our turn, we either went to the covered court to watch basketball or just talk among ourselves. What was so amazing was we had a new friend along the three of us. I like her because she appreciates my jokes and whatever I say or do. She's cool to hang out with. When it was already dismissal time, my best friend and I went to the gate where we were suppose to wait for our fetchers. We hanged there and bought food while we waited. We have to wait till 5 pm because our group in the play just cancelled our practices.

Note: My best friend and I are in different sections now.

That's what happened on the first day after the break.

Tuesday, Jan. 6 - i went to school in pants instead of jogging pants because I thought that our team already lost and therefore didn't have a game anymore to play on this day. Turns out that we still had three more games to play that day. We were still able to participate anyway. We first watched the tiyakad team to play for our section. Then we sat down and talked on the lawn and this time BADASS was included and complete plus the additional friend we gained from the day before. We played a memory game wherein we had to give off a name that started with the letter "A" then the next player had to say the given name that stared with "A" and give off another name but this time it would start with a "B". Then it goes on until we finish to "Z" wherein the unlucky player had to recite the names given from "A" to "Z" and she is not suppose to miss a name, or mispronounce the name, or change the name that was given by the other players. It was fun, although I was the first one out ince I mispronounced one of the names.

Anyway, that's not just what we did this day. I happen to bring to school my badminton set (net not included). We played badminton just me and my two best friends. Then towards the end of the day of school, we played with our new friend, and another friend of ours who hangs out with us whenever she likes to. Then after dismissal until 5pm, we practiced for our play, The Merchant of Venice. That was it for that day at school.

Today, Jan. 7 - Better than the other two days because we had more jokes today and more laghter than yesterday with our new friend. Everything was too good to be true, all the fun and happiness. Anyway, It's going to be all normal tomorrow... We are going to receive our scores from our exams!!! and now that I got home, I am suppose to memorize my lines for the play! But who cares, right? I don't think anyone else memorizes at this moment.

Well that's a wrap of the past couple of days.

See you then!

Yo! Wazzup Man!?!?!

It has been almost six weeks from my last post. i have to say that I had much to do that's why I hadn't have time to log in and post something new. I have to admit, I would've posted last semester break but I was too busy playing DragonFable. It is an RPG online game. I had a previous account and I haven't visited it for almost two years already so I thought of playing it for a change.

Dude, guess what? I got almost all what I want from the Music store. I already bought:

1. Camp Rock Soundtrack
2. High School Musical 3: Senior Year Soundtrack
3. A Little Bit Longer Album

All are original CD's! One more... I have a classmate who has a CD with the Jonas Brothers' 2ND album. Although, it's not original, I think it was good that I have a copy since she gave me her not original copy. I owe her. So in return, I let her borrow my HSM3 soundtrack. Unfortunately I think she accidentally dropped it on the floor since its CD cover is broken when I got it from her this morning. Ouch! And to think it was the original CD Soundtrack Album and one of my priced possession. And from that, I will never let anyone borrow my most priced possessions ever again because to tell you the truth I was upset and right now, I don't think I'm still treating the CD as a valuable thing anymore since it already looks old. I am disappointed since I told her not to put scratch on the CD and yet when I checked the disk out, it had scratches on its edges. Nooooo!!!!!!! Now, I regret what I did! I was stupid enough to let her borrow it since I thought that she was really neat and careful in keeping her things. But I thought wrong. (Basically, this is the reason why I posted again after 6 long weeks. =(

Anyway, back to the positive side, I have the tracks from the second and third album of the Jonas Brothers. I also got the soundtracks of HSM3 and Camp Rock. Have I mentioned that I have the Soundtrack of the first HSM? Well , yeah! It's also original. The second soundtrack of HSM is the only one that I don't have. Also in the case of the Jonas Brothers, I don't have their first album original tracks. It's sad but true.

I checked out my previous posts and I had one about enumerating the CD's that I would buy if ever I go in the mall. I don't think I still have interest in the Boys Like Girls Album. Probably, when I get to see it in the stores, I wouldn't be so excited to buy it. Instead, I will surely buy the Camp Rock Movie DVD since it is already in the market. I would also but the HSM3 Movie DVD if ever it has been released already. After those two DVDs, I will surely still have interest in Miley Cyrus' Album: Break Out!. I am very intrigue with what is in her album. And if ever I find one, I would also like to but Demi Lovato's Album because I think she's cool ans that she rocks! Well, that all depends to how much I would be saving for this month of November since this is also the month when I bout the two CDs: HSM and JB. It cost me a thousand to buy those two since they are original. Another factor that puts my savings to almost a zero is the guitar that we bought on the same day with the two CDs. It cost me half a thousand. now all that I have is a thousand left. Still, I don't regret buying those things since i have great interest in them and I will surely take care of them since the money that was spent for them came from my allowance for school.

Before I forget, I had spent the most amazing day with my friends last October 24, 2008 in Trinoma. We watched High School Musical 3: Senior Years in the theater! It was unforgettable since all of us are big fans and it also served as our union for the four of us since we are now in different sections and only two of us are in the same section. Since it was Friday, it was exciting because we have to go the house of one of us so we can get changed. We had lunch on the house then went to Trinoma. We left the mall exactly after it we left the cinema since we had a dance production the next day. That's why unfortunately for me, I had no one to be with on the next day itself since one of my friends who I watched HSM3 with the day before was already tired. It's a good thing I found the other friend of ours who wasn't able to watch HSM3 with us since she wasn't allowed. I spent the whole afternoon with her and her friends. It's really not awkward to be with them since i have shared the same classroom with them for the past two years. The other two (since we are four), had other friends aside from our group of four. So they decided to spend time with them since we already had enough days to be with one another. Even though I wasn't with my best friend who went home early, I still had fun!

Oh yeah, last Monday, my father celebrated his birthday. We ate in a restaurant for dinner. and last Sunday before his birthday, we bought him a birthday cake: Red Ribbon's S'more Chocolate Cake. Tomorrow, a box from distant relatives will be delivered at home which will serve as at least 1/8 of the Christmas gifts that will be given to us. the contains the iPod Shuffle I was talking about in my last post. It's not that I am expecting more gifts, it's just that this would always be the first batch of gifts then another will come this December. We will also be welcoming a visitor from another distant place different from the first one. She would be staying for a week here in the Philippines and happens to be my cousin who many of people in my father's side think that I look like her.

This week has been intense especially in our Chemistry class. We have to have a quiz everyday after discussion.So it's either you listen and perfect the quiz or sleep and fail the quiz. Not only in Chemistry do we have pressure of listening, we also have to listen and to the advices that are given to us student for the preparation for the PAASCU personnel who will be visiting the school next week, Monday and Tuesday only. I am half excited and half nervous because I might be late on those days especially on Monday. So I have to keep in mind not to be late on that day even though we have a visitor. This weekend, we'll have allot of surprises from distant places in the world. Right now, I'm just plain excited!!!!!

Some people I have to greet in my blog even though their day is done:

• Nick Jonas' 16Th b-day last September 16
• Kevin Jonas' 21st b-day last November 5
• the anniversary of my parents last September and October
• all of my relatives' b-day from January to November 14

Unfortunately, I wasn't able to post last October that it was breast cancer or simply cancer awareness month. Now, it's Diabetes Awareness Month. Then next month will be Christmas Awareness Month... Just kidding! There's no such thing. But there's such as Christmas Day! There are only 41 days left before Christmas! What should I wear??? Whatever it is, it'd better be good.

That's all! As you've notice, it's a bit long since all my thoughts are piled up and had just been released this very moment of the day. There are still more posts to come... Peace. =)