Things-that-happened-before-Summer Recap

Mode: I don't know...
Currently listening to: Summertime - The Click Five

yo! It has been a long time. No updates yet. Maybe there's a few an here it goes...

I don't know the exxact dates so I'll just narrate the things that were happening to me when I was not posting.

Last last last week, I think it was the week of doing alot of requirements like maybe... making the issue analysis, doing the micropaper or writing a formal theme. Or... performing Wayang Kulit, doing the culminating activity in music, or delivering the speech for our symposium. I'm not really sure whether these things happend on the said week but I think some of them happened and were continued last last week or last week. But I am sure that we had our exams last week and had a day rest last Wednesday.

That's what happened at least in general. Here are things that i can't forget until now.

Last Wednesday March 4, 2009, we had our Achievement Tests for the subjects Algebra, English, Chemistry, Filipino, and Geometry (yes, that's right. we had separate tests for Geom and Algeb).

Last Friday March 6, 2009, I had a heart-to-heart talk with the friend who has been the topic for quite some time. I opened up to her and she opened up to me. We shared what we felt, we shared problems to each other (at least that's what I think happened). But even though that happened, i think I will have to live the life I currently had last time since Feb. 2 which was the time when I felt that there was something wrong and the time when I realized that I was being pushed away in so many different ways. ever since that day, when I open my computer, I played the song Pushing Me Away by the JB. It is not mentioned in my posts that I was currently listening to that because that's the only one playing on my playlist. I'll get bored with a song so appropriate that I don't even want to sing or hear it play again. I'm complicated and hard to firgure out sometimes. So just skip the sentence before the sentence before this. Anyway, more on this later.

Last Monday March 9, 2009, a friend told me that the last screening of the Jonas Brothers Burnin' Up Concert in 3D will be on Wednesday March 11, 2009. So I told her that I can't watch it anymore. We were suppose to watch it together in SM North Edsa The Block Cinema 1. Then awhile ago, I read the broadsheet "Manila Bulletin". I saw with my own very eyes the part of the newspaper that read "JONAS BROTHERS IN 3D" on the column of the SM Cinema The Block in bold letters. That means that the movie is still being sreened and shown to the mall. But I believed her when I noticed that all the malls except the The Block were not showing the JB's concert anymore. Now, I still haven't watched it yet and I know that there will be no chance for me to watch it anymore. I asked my mom to allow me to watch the movie while we were in the mall (SM North Edsa) awhile ago. But she didn't allow me no matter how I begged her. When she made up her mind, I didn't have much of a choice but to listen to her and stop begging so she won't get mad at me. I hope it will still be shown until the last week of the month so I still have the chance to ask my other friends to watch the movie with me. The ticket costs Php301.00.

Schedule of our exams last week:

• Monday - Advanced Algebra and Practical Exam in TLE
• Tuesday - Social Studies and Religion
• Wednesday - rest day
• Thursday - Communication Arts in English and Chemistry
• Friday - Geometry and Communication Arts in Filipino

Last Friday March 13, 2009, my two friends and I went to McDonald's retiro to celebrate the last of the school year 2008-2009. We ate of course and talked about different things like college and our pets.

Yesterday, I pretty much didn't do anything. Just lied on the couch turned the television on and changed the channel to either Myx, MTV, Nickelodean, or Disney Channel. Sometimes I check out the channels Star World, Star Movies, HBO, Velvet, LIfestyle Network, Maxxx, Foxcrime, AXN, Animax, ETC, 2nd Avenue and sometimes local channels like ABS-CBN, GMA-7, and QTV. Then I also ate breakfast, lunch, merienda, dinner and midnight snack (I didn't have time for recess since I woke up at 9am).

Today, my brother, my mom, and I went to SM North Edsa. We shecked out the newly built Annex. It was like Trinoma; only it had more gadget stores than shopping stores. Some clothe stores and restaurants were soon to open. The sad part was the Max's restaurant in the main bulding of the mall was closed for renovation. So we didn't have a chance to eat lunch there. We ate lunch at the main building and bought things that need replacements at home and also groceries. Then we went back to Annex to have some merienda. There they, the Annex, had Dairy Queen, Pizza Hut, French Baker, KFC and other new restaurants. Before going home, I bought a new hamster in Bio Research! It was a little disappointing 'cause t hey didn't have a white male hamster anymore. All of them were a half white, half brown. So I got the whitest of them all. Now, we have two hamsters again. More about the hamsters later.

Now, I can feel summer! That's because I can feel the heat. I am also playing pop songs and summertime songs. So if you know other summer songs, just type it/them in on your comments.

That's for now. This post will have to remind me of other things that I will post later or maybe tomorrow.

See ya then!

My Life Sucks A Lot and Rocks A Little

Mood: sad
Currently watching to: Bata, Bata Paano Ka Ginawa

my life sucks in so many ways...

• We have a practice for the Play in Filipino today... And everyone has to attend. I think I'm the only one is not there. I feel like a useless member of the group. The reason why I can't attend is because my mother didn't allow me. Her reason s because my dad texted her and told her that his office is in a brown out situation and the rain is pouring heavily. But here at home, I the rain is is just light and there is no brown out. I had to call my classmate to tell her that I can't come with her on the way to the court where the group is suppose to practice. I feel bad about myself because last night I already told her that my parents agree for me to go to the practice. Now, I feel that tomorrow they will get mad at me. I can see right now the face of my friend who is the leader of the group. She is probably crying or really pist off or really mad at me. I don't think I can show myself to her or to my groupmates tomorrow. I'm scared to death now.
• We have a homework in Filipino about making a summary of all the Chapters of the novel we read, about making Character Analysis on the characters of course, and about their very important dialogues. We are suppose to just write them in our notebooks but unfortunately for me, I forgot my notebook in my locker. I almost forgot, too, about this homework. It's a good thing that my classmate group mailed about if she can print hers instead. That reminded me of the homework. What sucks is that I shouldv'e done the homework two days ago.
• Our Advanced Algebra teacher always gives us advance homework. if we do the a.h., we can get extra points. I always get that kind of homework done the day she gives it. now, I haven't done the most recent one and I haven't finished the last one yet.
• I could've done the advance homework if it weren't for my math notebook, running out of pages. We went to the NBS yesterday and I totally forgot about the stinking notebook. Now, even though I like to start answering the homework, I can't. I still have nowhere to write the answers.

Though it sucks a lot, it rocks a little bit...

• My mom found a way so I can watch "Magnifico" and "Bata, Bata Paano Ka Ginawa?". These are movies that we have to watch individually or in group. These are part of the lessons for us to learn in the Filipino subject. We rented a VCD of Magnifico and a DVD of Bata, Bata yesterday. I finished watching MAgnifico last night. Now, I'm somewhre in the middle of the movie Bata, Bata.
• It's a good thing I didn't come to the practice, too. Now, I have time to finish the movie and do the homework.

That's all! I wish tomorrow will never come...

IT'S NOT FAIR!!!

Mood: I feel so pist off!!!
Currently listening to: This Is Me - Demi Lovato

A little thing that anyone should know about me is that I hate secrets especially when they are kept away from me. People with secrets are, in my opinion, insecure. If anyone would know about there secret, they fear that people might not treat them right. But one thing they don't know is that they are supported at all times by those people who care about them.

You see, the thing is, what really hurts is when your friend whom you know more than anyone in a group of new faces, has an experience or story that she is not telling you but is telling to othrs whom she has known for months only. You ask her, "what is it all about" and all she says is "you'll kick my ass if you knew" whatever that is. Because of this, instead both of you are bonded together as friends, you get more and more separated from her since you don't know what's happening in her life and about her. How the heck will you know her better if she doesn't update you when you ask for an update? The part which makes you wish you weren't her frind is when you figure that she is telling her update to another person other you, who asked first.

Everytime the two of you walk together to go to another venue where the class will be held, a classmate approaches and asks if she can borrow your friend for a moment and talk to her about secrets you shouldn't hear that's why they have to be away from you. This leaves you to yourself alone in the corridor going to where the class is suppose to go. If you see a person who you can walk with, other than your friend who is "borrowed away from you", you yourself will find a reason for walking with her so she doesn't feel being used by you since you have no one to walk with.

Another reason why you wish you weren't her friend is because during free period when the teacher is late, you find yourself sitting with her but not talking to her which is the main reason why you seated beside her in the first place. Then you feel like moving a seat away from her because you don't want to see her and the person, who she is talking to, whisper or mouthing what they have to say to each other since it is a secret. Everytime a person talks to her, you have to back off a little so you won't hear what they are talking about. You just look away when they laugh about something you don't even know about.

Then she tells one secret. She also tells you not to tell anyone. You know that she'll get mad when you tell anyone so you keep it a secret. Then you find yourself in a situation where she accidentally blurts it out and tells to the people who heard to not to tell anyone about it. Then one of the people who heard it spreads it out and she doesn't even get mad at that person. Then you think about that situation where you think that what if you were the one who told the secret. You'll think and guess that she won't talk to you for a day and that she won't tell you any more secrets.

And to think that she is suppose to do all of these things with you and that she should be considering you more since both of you had a foundation to your friendship and all that's left is to build it up more so it won't break down into pieces. You don't want your hardwork into building your friendship be put into waste just like that. She doesn't mean to do these things with others instead of you. But the process you are going through and the thoughts that go into your head are holes that can bring down such friendship.

She is friends of course with those she shares secrets with. They very fortunate to know a lot about my friend more than I know her. That's why, because of this realization in life, I have decided to tell my bestfriend about the website of this blog. My bestfriend can judge me in any way she wants. She is my best friend after all. She understands me that's why I have a lot of fun when I'm with her. There is never a boring moment with her. True, there are times when the two of us are out of things to say to each other but being with her makes me happy already. I hpe she feels and thinks the same way. If not, it's fine me too! We don't have secrets from each other. That's why I felt unfair to her because she tells and allows me to visit and read about whatever she writes in her blog and I don't want her to know whatever I post in my blog and won't even tell her mine when I changed the web address.

On Monday, I am ready to tell her my web address and let her read everything in this blog. I'll just tell her not to tell anyone. It will be our own little secret, just the two of us. This a simple kind of revenge that I can think of. It's a bad revenge but it's the one thing I got that my other friend doesn't know about.

What sucks and rocks is that next school year, we will surely make another term paper about a different novel. In our school, we do the term paper as a pair. My partner is my friend who seems to be the topic of this post. Next school year, she surely won't be my partner because she already made arrangements with another classmate. Now, I am forced to pair myself with a classmate who I have been sitting beside ever since my first year in High School. She is the only one I got who is serious yet fun to be with too. It sucks because my friend who the topic is the best in the class and that's something that everyone in the class has to admit. If don't work with her, then I guess my term paper next school year won't be as good as what the two of us are doing now. What rocks is that she doesn't have to boss me around next school year in doing the term paper since she won't be my partner anymore.

It's not fair because I should be knowing her better and getting close to her since I am her friend for three or four years.

Now you know how I am and what I go through during class hours. I only get to hang out with my bestfriend and leave my friend during recess and lunch time.

Writing all fo these things that are trapped and now set free in my head makes me feel a lot better. I feel the best if my best friend would read this post.

So chow for now!

I'll sign in to Yahoo! Messenger to give her an instant message containing the web address of this blog of mine. Some of these are things I already told her.

Something That I Should Have Posted First When I Started My Blog

Mood: Irritated
Currently listening to: Fly On A Wall - Miley Cyrus

I will have to post whatever this one is about soon because I have to sleep now. I'll just edit this when I am going to post the real content of this post.

Goodnight! I hope you read this note because you won't be able to read it anymore when I edit this in the future...

My mood is really sleepy. The mood indicated is just a reminder for that the post about my irritation on something.

That's all! See you then!!!

Mood: amazed to myself, angry
Currently listening to: Love Me or Hate Me - Lady Sovereign

I'm amazed to myself just now because I just helped my brother on his Math homework. It was easy! And when he checked it himself, it was right! How amazing is that?!?

Anyway, there is something I should tell. Before, the first ever web address of this blog is http://afraidtoridearollercoaster.blogspot.com/. Now, I changed it to http://whatrocksandwhatsucks.blogspot.com/ because my best friends found out about this. They weren't suppose to know. It was just last Monday when I got the news about the two of them knew about this. They are not suppose to know because I consider this as my personal diary. I don't want anyone them reading whatever I post in this blog. I won't allow anyone to do so except for my brother because we started wo have a blog at the same time. Anyone whom I don't know yet from anywhere else can totally read this. My reason is I don't want them judging me for what I write in here in my blog. They might hate for this because I only sometimes show them my true feelings about them and about other things. But they do know some of what I post here because they are part of some. Now, They probably have read everything from the start. The sad part is that they didn't even put a single comment. It was disappointing at the same time irritating. I also feel a little embarrassed becuase of some of my posts...

Anyway, I'm going to eat dinner now.

Later!

I'm FREAKING OUT!!! (for the first time in my life)

Long time no post since Dec 12. I was busy reviewing for my exams. Don't wanna waste my time doing nothing. But unfortunately, I don't think that I did my best in the tests because I took a lot of my time thinking about the right answer instead of answering the questions. It was very depressing. I'm guessing that I all of my grades will be less a point in the card. Now, I am a little nervous. I don't think that my class standing would help increase or retain my previous grades because my participation, I think, was not half good. To tell the truth, This is my worst performance in school ever. And I thought that I would absolutely have fun this school year. But now, I think it's the exact opposite.

First of all, I didn't do well in my Speech in Filipino. Here's the story:

I was the first one to speak in front of the class!!!!! How COOL is that supposed to be since your turn is over by the next minute. I was so fortunate that I wasn't able to memorize my supposedly memorized speech. And normally, I cried after I muttered and made fun of my self in front of everyone in class. I'm telling ya... It was FREAKING HUMILIATING!!!!! I asked the teacher if there was any extra curricular activity that I can do so I can get a payback score kind of thing so I don't fail her subject: Filipino. But all that she said was that I there is none; I can do my payback in the exams. But as I just said, I don't think I did well in the freaking exams!!!

*I'm using "Freaking" because my friend thought that she was the one who started saying the word when in fact I was the one who started using the word which I learned in "The New Adventures of Old Christine" (I don't watch it, I just heard it in the commercial in ETC or 2ND Avenue).

Second, Advanced Algebra quizzes are killing me, mentally. I don't know what's happening to me. I think I'm degrading myself too much but I think I don't have the smarts or the brains to excel much in the subject anymore. So frustrating... (and to think I'm the girl in class that doesn't know how to get frustrated... I am now!).

Third, let's talk about my favorite subject this school year that is another factor that makes this year and quarter so bad. Chemistry is what I'm talking about. I'm pretty good at the subject. So good that one, I wasn't able to answer the last two questions in the long test which both were worth FIVE POINTS EACH!!!!! I lost automatically TEN FREAKING POINTS!!!!! Ha! Beat that! It was over sixty-five and I only got fifty-three. If ever I answered the two questions correctly, I would have gotten sixty-three over sixty-five. That's two points away from the perfect score. I got beaten by an average girl in Chemistry who happens to be the friend I was talking about in the *asterisk part. I have to say... That's not surprising at all. She was the batch's second top student last quarter. Who knows... maybe she'd be number one. She could possibly beat me in Advanced Algebra too since we have the same subjects all to ourselves. She's good in Math and Science, I'm good in Math and Science. We both are. Anyway... that's not all! I also wasn't able to finish the exam MISMO. I wasn't able to answer the last page and the three-fourths of the second to last page. What's worse is that my answers in the multiple choice was tragic because at first I was calm that my answer was correct since my answer appeared in the choices. but as the test numbers go by, the questions or should I say the items for computations just became harder! So I guessed MOST, not some, of the answers... so sad. I screamed along with my other classmates who weren't able to finish the exam just like me.

Fourth, and I think is the last, is the Practical Exam in Computer. I was so pleased at first when the teacher said that we can look in our notes for the codes since it was impossible for us to memorize all of it. When taking the test, there was an instruction that says that we should make another window and when the time is right, we will make it appear after the first window. How the HECK can we do that if she didn't give us the codes??? Then the class found out that in other sections, they have the codes since they discussed the topic. It was not frustrating for me since it was over but for one it was so frustrating that she is still mad about it when she found out (she's the friend I'm talking about). In general, I think the class didn't get high grades. and correction, writing this in my blog doesn't mean I was frustrated. I'm just sharing the reasons why I think this year is the worst for me so far.

Anyway... I'm not really angry or mad about my friend that has been part of this post. It just so happens that I got sick of her since we're together every time in class while my best friend is in the other section. We're alwqays together that some friends in the class call me her "Leech". I also got sick of being labeled as her "leech" that I quit stalking her in the sense that I don't follow her that often now. If she wants to this way, I go that way. That's the way it rolls now.

I can also say this is the worst year because I am not classmates with my best friend, my seatmates are not helping me focus, I always think about Matt Prokop that I can't concentrate in studying for quizzes, exams, and long tests. Talk about crushes again...

Anyway, that's it for now! Merry Christmas to all!!!

It's Joyful and Depressing at The Same Time

Wednesday...

We had no classes because of the PAASCU. I was all alone at home. I watched television from morning till 12pm. Then I ate lunch. After that I turned the computer and played music. I took a bath and got ready for 4pm because I made a deal with a friend that we would go to my brother's school to buy a book in their book fair. Unfortunately, there were two factors that didn't allow us to go in the school. First, the guard said that it is not allowed for visitorse to go in if they are wearing shorts which what I was wearing (it wsn't really a short shorts that is really short, it was just above my knees). So, my friend and I had to go back at home just for me to change. We went back and were pretty sure that this time, we were allowed to go in. Still, the gaurf didn't let us in even though we told him that my friend is a family of one of the teachers in the school. The guard suggested to bring the teacher with us then we could come in. Sadly, the teacher had a meeting that day and time. In short, we weren't able to go in and buy a book... Even though it didn't work for us, I was still happy that day since I received the iPod I was promised about. It is a Pink iPod Shuffle. It is really cute...

Thursday...

Classes resumed. We had shortened period because we had club meetings. Everything went normal except for the schedule. Two things happened that day that I will never ever forget.

First, it was during lunch break. I had my wallet with me when I went to the cafeteria with my best friend until we sat down and eat whatever we chose to eat. After we ate, we went for a dessert. When I was about to reach for my wallet, it seemed that it wasn't in my pocket nor it was in my jacket pocket or on the table. We went looking for it by tracing our steps from the table to the corner where they put the spoons and forks (assuming that I dropped it while we were on our way in getting a spoon and fork. We weren't able to find it... To think that I was really calm at those moment because I knew that my wallet will surely be found since it has my name on it. So I waited until after lunch and until dismissal. There was no wallet found and no announcements about it. I spent my after lunch ours very miserable. At those times, I was already preparing myself to the consequences that I would take when I told my mom about it. I came looking for it during club hours and after club hours. I was still not able to find it. Then dismissal came. I went to the lost and found office twice but the personnel in charge wasn't there. I was dissappointed but surprisingly didn't cry. My friends and I were heading to the gate where we were supposed to be picked up individually by our fetchers. I decided to go back in the campus and searched for it. I was with my best friend. There was something happened that made me have more faith in God. We happen to pass by the cafeteria again. Desperately, I talked to the maintainance personnels and asked them about a missing walet in the cafeteria. At first we misunderstood each other but when I repeated my question if they had found any wallet, they let me and my friend come in the kitchen. They asked for my name, the color of the wallet, and the amount that was present in my wallet to confirm that the wallet they found was mine. Everything I answered had a match and then I found my wallet unexpectedly!!! Thanks to the school's maintenance and to my perseverance to find my wallet before leaving the school, I was abel to find my wallet.

Second, it was during the club hours towards dismissal time. Everyone went to their respective venues for their club. I went in my own club: Math. I was first one in then others followed. At that time, I was still looking for my wallet so I went down to the Lost and Found Office the first time to see if it was there. Then I went back to the second floor because club was starting already. The my club's activity was to play gameboards. So we played for the whole club hours, everyone except me and a new found friend. We are both fans of High School Musical 3 and it just so happened that we were in the same club, in the same venue, in the same time. She was playing Uno with other members. I was watching them play since they had already started the game. She began to sing "Can I Have This Dance" from HSM3 Soundtrack. I guessed she'd watched the movie and already had the soundtrack since she memorized the song lyrics already just like me. I sang with her in the chorus. For awhile, we were shy to show our true colors in singing but when the Uno game was finished, we sang different songs in the HSM3 Album. We had duets and even sang and laughed at the same time. So our voice were really loud enough to let everyone in the club hear us. Since we were the older ones in the club (the fourth year members were in a different venue), we stood up and started dancing and singing "Can I Have This Dance". She even lifted me and circled around since she was heavier than I am. While we were doing the lifteing and the waltzing, the fourth years were entering the room!!! I felt a little embarrassed but seeing that my new friend wasn't, I had confidence to continue our musical since there was nothing else to do. We also did "I Just Wanna Be With You" Sharpay and Jimmie version. She was Sharpay, I was Jimmie. I was so funny that we weren't able to perform in a snap. Everyone was looking at us now. Moments before, most were ignoring us. Now that we used the stage, we got their attention. Appluase were given to both of us. Then Dismissal came. Indeed, it was a day to remember...

Friday...

My day wasn't the same since my seatmate had to go home because she is sick. Things were not happy for me since I have no one to chat with. I can still talk to my other seatmeats though, but the teacher would notice it. So I was completely bored. Not to mention that my best friend's section had their outbound that day! I had no one to eat lunch with in the cafeteria. It's a good thing I had lunch with me cooked by my mom that morning before going to school. I spent recess with my half-bestfriend and also lunch... Then when I came home form school, I was excited to open up the computer becuase I wanted to put songs in my first ever iPod! At first I wasn't successful in doing so that went to the point that I gave up. But when my brother came home form the Computer shop to play DoTA, the syncing of songs were a success!!! I guess that my brother was my lucky charm that day. When going to bed, I was attached to it but I knew I had to get it off my ears so I can really go to sleep. I thank God that night for the success of my iPod...

Saturday (Today)...

Today is cleaning day. I fixed my cabinet of stuffs since it was already dusty and unorganized. I had time for a little review for our longtest in religion on Monday. I wasn't able to focuse since I was listening to my iPod. One things for sure taht made my day really bad, the right side of my headphone is not working its purpose. It is broken for now and I am currently using the headset of the computer which is big and I don't think I'm going to bring it upstairs to bed. I have to replace it before anything else. I was frustrated at first becuase it is my first iPod ever and now I have ruined its headphone. How bad is that...

Tomorrow, I don't think I am able to replace since we are not going anywhere tomorrow but to the church. So frustrating that I cride a little (it wasn't noticeable).

That's all... So sad but true... I never had been this depressed in my entire life since I don't have a boyfriend yet. The boyfriend that I consider now is my iPod shuffle and it seems that I have to replace a part of him... It's joyful and depressing at the same time...

=( yeah...